omggggg....fcuking sway la this month!
kanna F. play majong keep lost money,
cant go work due to sick and tire.
stomach keep pain for nth lo.
not feeling well, endure and come to work.
late for work, forget bring flow for work.
slipper spoil! urhhhhhhh ~
faster. aft today will be a brand new days ahead!
looking forward to dec!!! come....
tmolo FYP presentation.
go back have to read through. rmb!
and rdy for tmolo presentation! and its holiday ler.
hope schedule get ler keep working.
i wanto be busy, earn money.
i wan my life to be finish work, go back slp.
slp ler wwake up and go to work!
just wanna be alone, and wont think much.
i prefer to be this kind of life now.
cos it will be much much peace!
although it may be lonely, but.....
i just don wish to worry for anyone anymore.
its tire to do so.
to him, and to my dearest her. ^{both must be happy luh~}
shall stop here ba. tada!


labels: i just wanto pretend dat everything is over.

dat is th least, and last things i can do for you.
i put in my effort ler.
look around, ask around for yur fav cake wear is nicer.
went all th way down to order and collect.
look around for yur present, hope you will like it luh.
in my life, i nvr wanto step inside kitchen to cook.
2nd times im doing it for you. dat is really th most i can do.
hope you njoy it alrite, takecare!



hmm, im back home ler!
i miss my bed la, LOL!
miss my smelly smelly for 1day ah.
nvr wento work today.
im just too tire to do so la.
but for sure i will be gng tmolo ler.
my stomach not really feeling very well.
make me quite bad mood today.
sry to those who get my shot ah.
thks for th acc of th day,
although i don really wad you been thinking.
each time of yur acc, make me happy.
but it seem like you re with me, but yur heart not.
but still, thks!
stop here ler. anw, i do have photo.
but i donthink it will be fine to post.
stop here then. BYEEE~



P.S 我只能为你走到这里, 好好的过你的生活. 每一次面对我你只有那几句话, 我有点累了. 我决定不再等你. 决定, 我决定不再等待. 续集我, 决定要在天亮之前. 告别这一段全心全意占有的, 记忆.

oh yeaa, strike 12am now.
just to say,
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU(:
hope you njoy everything alrite.


back to blogging,
wento collect cake at TAKA.
thks bi so much.
dat he pei me through out.
shop around, wento to PS funland.
noe wad? diao dao my fav SCRUMP wor.
1st half is my gong lao, i diao till gng drop.
last part difficult part, bi gong lao.
i was too xcited ler, don dare :D
in th end, bi really diao dao! wow :x
use 5bucks in 10mins to diao dao lo.
3claps to von & bi ^^
went ave buy dinner for mum&sis.
and back home at 10plus.
buy for em to eat, nvr buy for myself.
so clever urh ~ so damn hungry now.
somehow, i wish i can eat MEGA SPICY now.
although i noe its damn spicy.
but i really feel like eating it now lo.
with th fries hot hot d. cool beh?
hmm.. photo do all say be. BYEEE~

{edited}

omgggggg.....almost 4am ler.
and i still cant slp yet, flip here and there.
im soooooo damn tire, but why?
i just couldnt slp! hais.....
dinner didnt eat anything, yet now.
i cant slp, and damn hungry too.
ahhhhhhh!!!! tmolo 9am talk in sch,
sure cant make it ler la.
and still have to stress over F.
is like sway la, bad mood! cant slp.
wad should i do, i wan slp.
but when i just close my eyes,
awhile jiu open. just cannot slp!
help can ?!?! feel so tire ler lo.
hais )':

ohhhyeaa :DDD
im pretty better now.
cos i learn to forward but not backwards.
in every r/s we do learn wadever we nid to.
wo yi jing kan kai le.
i really wish, i can do it this time round.
let go, it will be better for you and me(:
im sry for all th bad temper i givyou
for th past few days. takecare luh!

well, im at home th whole day.
gd girl rite? so gd sia.
jieBf treat me eat stingray sia.
anw, sry to let em worried.
thks for all th concern, i will be fine.
yeaa, my maple lvl ler! great :D
and here i am to blog, nth much luh.
didnt go wear also.
shall stop here! BYE ~


labels: wo lei ler, no matter takecare alrite(:

hello!
oh yeaa, im still half drunk!
vomit like hell lo, till now still so xinku.
drink so much lo, and im working now.
yet here blogging! power ah?
i nvr get so high for very long.
since yth! thks so much to u lo.
i got to thk my Dearest Baby!
he's always there for me, nvr fail to be.
but i always throw temper at him,
but he din even angry me d.
somehow, frens i have really care for me.
see me this way, all was like worried.
im sry to make you guys do so.
sry to let my family worried too )':

ling & bunny,
thks so much so much! if not both of you, i nvr realise dat some is true like wad you both say. you both ask me, is he worth? till now, i might still say donno. cos i really love him, but he alrdy decide me ler. ended! this is wad he wan. he is sick and tire of me, he give up. but i promise, i will stay strong. thks both of you d caring! ^^

Gfren,
maybe you will see this post, maybe not. but just to let you noe, im not angry with you. but pls wadever you do or say think 1st. and show some respect to me, im willing to say if you ask me. not i donwan talk to you, but i hope you noe why i didnt talk to you. i noe, you been worrying for me very long. you tell em, bcos you care. i can see, i can feel. i feel bless to have this gf. i cherish th frenship in btw us. i nvr wanna lose any of my fren. cos all frens re precious to me. but i still thks you luh, if not u telling em. they din nag me, i wont realise la. takecare urh! love you(:

Baby,
oh ass! if u see this, got to thk you for high-ing with me yth nite. if not you, i think my hse would be over flow with water liao. hahahaha! so damn high man! its th 1st time we like crazy lo, so funny la u. do all those stupid things! really thks alot. all this while you been acc, and sry to yur gf urh. for using u each time in th middle of th nite. LOL! you re th best. no matter wad, u will be always my Dearest frens!

Marcus,
thk so much so much, thks for th talk. although you wont ask me much when u noe im sad. th same, u also nvr fail to be there. and thks for th morning call too(: if not, i donno how late will i be for work ler.

Lastly to You,
nid not me to stated name ba, well! all those msg u sent. i feel dat im tire enough more than u alrite. all along, i don ask more from you. a simple sent me home, care for me from yur heart. dats all? is dat so called wad you said, i wan more and more from you? im yur eyes, when we meet like is so secret, cannot let em noe. we re frens only, wad for u scare? but u ca proudly and ans me, bcos you donwan em misunderstanding. by this sentence, you prove to me alot. all this yrs, all i do for you is worth nth. just bcos of you donwan em misunderstanding, u nvr think of my feeling. u noe bcos of you, i can even like wad u say don let em noe all this. i go as you wish. i didnt say much. anw, i don wish to blog all out la. simple, yur bday cake i will still buy. th last things i can do. have a gd celebration with yur frens and family. takecare alrite? yur leg ah, getting worst jiu must faster go see another doc or go hospital ler. anw, we re still frens la. as for maple you got th passwords, you wanna go in play or not anything d la. i wont hate u luh, i will still treat u as fren(:


nah ~ totally dinner nvr eat jiu go drink liao.
like empty stomach lo! haha :DDD
if peeps see this sure scold like hell ler.
vomit 2times ler, don feel like eating anything.
like god ler, till now 3plus haven even eat!
ahhhh....so xinku lo!
th idiot baby pei me working sia, so gd! [act one!]
faster end work, sales gd gd! haha!
shall stop here then, last of all!
everyone, im fine! don worry ya.
i will stay strong and move on.
i promise you guys and i promise myself!
i believe with me or not, you will still move on.
jiayou lo! BYE ~

you prove to me, wad they say is true!
like wise, go think why i say so.
sometimes, i find it u re really selfish.
all this years, how much things i've done for you?
no matter how tire, i will nvr leave u alone.
when u need some, no matter wad.
i will sure be there no matter wear am i. but me?
bcos of knowing you re tire, i help you do things.
from TM take all th way back to hougang w/o complaining.
next day, tort you would take from me.
but you told me u re tire, i make a effort take to yur hse.
i was late for work, in th end? wad i get was to go back alone!!!
sometimes i make so much effort, and i dont feel well.
will you ask me ok ma? be by my side? and even thk me?
even when u noe im feel giddy, did hold on me?
no! you let me walk alone, and take things myself!
bcos of knowing u re hungry, giv you surprise
by buying it for in th middle of th nite w/o asking, will you?
although you will care for me by asking wad happen,
but you understand how it feel inside?
but when u noe wad happen, you would always don care lo.
i don find it.......issit a concern? how much effort im thinking
for yur bday ma? did you even noe?
when they say i spent so much on you is useless.
at 1st i don think so, but why? you to prove me its true.
i cant use anything to lie to myself anymore,
i cant use any words to xplain to myself in order to forgive you.
i noe when you see this post, all you would do just treat me cold.
if you wanna do so, anything you.
i alrdy done enough things for wearby did you really appricate?
there so much so much.....hais!


labels: think about for i say la!

hmm...
celebration with LULU today ya ^^
steamboat for dinner.
damn damn damn full lo!
bus-ed 80 back to hougang.
thks BROTHER Fishy for acc waiting for bus urh.
love you deep deep too! :DDD
back home alrdy 12plus.
bath, and maple. yup! play back maple.
but is to kill my boring time.
play awhile jiu come blogging ler.
i shall stop here, OMG!
lesson tmolo at 9am, and now its alrdy 3am plus.
hopefully i could manage to wake up ^^
shall upload agn th photo we take.

{edited}

its 4am plus, and im still here blogging.
i cant slp, really cant.
i play back th video i made for you.
i use my effort to find yur baby from yur parent.
surprise for you! i cried when i play back th video.
th song in th video just like how much i love you.
my currently blog song, listen back....
i miss everything single things we been through.
i really miss it )))':

labels: 你让我感觉爱是让人心痛的, 我会坚强的. im tire )':

well...
im like didnt blog for 12345years.
hmm.. i didnt noe wad to blog either.
i donno why, i cried bitterly inside my heart.
its like so heartbreak when i heard wad u say.
原来在你眼里我的付出比不上他们的误会.
no matter how hard i tried,
no how much i do...i knew it wont be enough.
for you, i donno why i can do so much w/o complaining.
but why? why u treat me good, dote me.
make me feel....somethings is wrong? i donno.
im confuse... i really do!
somehow, somewear, someday...
w/o me, maybe yur life would be happier.
hais...

disappointed....
i didnt knew wadto say when.... im being treated this way...
wad am i to you in yur eyes? woke up chest pain...
damn xinku...hard to breath... didnt go to sch...you think i wish to?
miss a lesson like missing alot of lesson... but...th pain i have u noe ma?
would you ever concern... asking am i alrite?
no you didnt, im sad to noe... i told you... tort u will pei...
in th end...why? wad am i hoping for? when i noe nth u would do...
a normal, re u ok? i wont hear dat anymore! a words of corcern...
would you turn back and look for me when im lost?
i just wanto acc you cos im worry... rejected... rejected...
even i noe my chest pain.. i still wan pei you go...
say hao ler... go tgt.. wear re all those words we say hao?
you say hao wanna go tgt... now.. rejected me and go...
im worry... you noe ma? see you laidat... my heart is pain... you noe ma?
不想要每次为了你而掉眼泪... 我觉得好累但我却舍不得放手...
tell me, wad should i do? like all my frens say?
i did try to let go...j ust dat... no matter wad happen, how you treat me..
in th end...i will still be there. i did hate myself...why being so soft hearted...
for you, how much things i do... you knew it... but... i just not worth to let u let love...
cos i born to do so much just for you? issit? hais.............
为了她任何事情你都肯付出... 但我能?
你却不会, 我只希望你多关心我... 也做不到吗?


{edited}

after see doc ler... doc say my chest pain...
due to cough.. till now still pain luh...
i think i should stop smoking....
due to stop my chest pain... gd girl :x LAUGHS*
down to bedok look for aunty...
alrdy promise her... go better! ltr angry agn...
bus-ed back to hougang.... meet up with B, B.Gf, and Gf!
to pasa malam... finally i get to chance go there ler! :p
then sit down chitchat, in th end.
meet up Tling, her bro and Pshihui, chitchat alot at mac...
in th end... down to meet up with J and J.fren to jalan kanyu.
peeps treat eat wor, thks urh! :DDD
back home....

disturb by my stupid idiot shorty BRO!
disturb my slping, i cant wake up tmolo then u noe!
bro, cheerup la! donthink much. no point sad la!
i will add more more salt! let u more happy alrite?
im more happier than u lei? jealous hor?
iyo! sadded.........cry :'( thks la. happy now?
you thk me also too, spent my slping time pei u talk!
gd bro rite? wear to find sia? here lo.

i feel like going to seaside......
shout it out loud.....
all my stress....my worries....my sadness!
i give up fpr hoping anything....
i really do! takecar peeps.....
for th time being....
i will leave....letting everything down!
i will stay strong no matter wad....
suan ler....nth impt to me now....
totally no mood to eat anything....
cant slp....i feel like gng out....
cabbed to anywear....let me tone down....

我依然还是爱着你的!

bad day!
its really fcuking bad days!!!!
fcuking piss-ed off!!!! didnt do things sucessfully!!!!
eat wad drop wad, drink wad drip wad.
nearly cant complete phase test.
lucky thing, tcher say i do well.
feel better!!!!! miss communication with peeps.
come th topid things. fuck up la!!!!
do online test got prob!!!!
knn. tmolo fail ler la! ahhhhhhh....
fucking piss-ed off!!!!!
i don nid yur help, i don nid!!!!!
i will help myself.
whenever you nid help i will be there!!!!
you!!!! i donthink so lo!!!!
dont fcuking making use of me lo!!!!
didnt anything for dinner!!!
hais........im just like nth at all in yur eyes!!!!

im sry, i dint wanto to post till so mean.
im fcuking moody!!!!
i think dont blog ler.

well... thirty-eight mor mins to 2am.
i cant slp, im tire but just couldnt slp :x
wad happen to me???? i so damn tire.
my J. cried infront of me today, due to something.
make me so shock so shock.
me, myself. donno been how long.....
i've nvr shed a tears infront of em.
i would rather hide at 1 corner crying,
keep it to myself w/o letting em worry.
sometimes, im confuse(?) wad should i do(?)
now d me, whenever i feel sad.
i woould nvr nvr tell anyone. i will nvr do dat!
peeps really chg, some chg to be reality bcos of money.
some chg to just making use of you to kill boring time.
alot alot more of th example....i hate being make use!
i hate peeps lie to me, i rather you let me noe th truth!
nah` i donno wad happen to me now.
jus like so tire of my life im having now.
but life.......still have to go on each day!
hais.......... )':

ohhhh my......
i slp for like 2hrs only.
back home in th morning.
fall aslp! tort class at 9am.
in th end i also wake up late.
lucky thing, cabbed to sch with J.
tort i was late cos reach sch at 1015am.
lucky! its 1030am then start.
woosh~ end class early today, end at 3plus.
back home bath, awhile jiu fall aslp.
raining heavily, suppose to meet S. at amk.
but due to raining, lazy go out.
wake up at around 6pm, stay home th whole day.
well, was quite boring d.
talk with J. pei dearest M. go dwnstair take things.
chat with all those aunty till so long.
naggy sia my mum! haha :DDD
buy food for J. to eat jiu back home ler.
shall stop typing, BYEEE!!!


labels: i hate peeps to lie!!! you got no intention, then dont lie to me. just tell me you donwan to. i cant believe wad i see. all was just a lie!!!

well well well....
yth back home at 4amplus sia.
back home chg jiu slp ler.
wake up at morning 11amplus.
so tire now! whole day at home.
play with my korkor d baby.
so naughty! but cute lo.
not gng out today.
ltr on have SUBWAY CLUB to eat agn.
thks to J.
haha! im really crazy over SUBWAY!
stop here luh~


let me tell you, wad you wan say bad abt me.
just go ahead! it just nth to me alrite?
you wan go for new r/s or go complain things to yur frens.
ehhhhhh, just go ok!!!! i also wouldnt care anymore.
all this is you yurslef willing to do. no one force you!
don speck till like so kelian la. like you sacrified alot!
nobody force you to do so. let me tell you th truth!
all my frens around me, no one can stand you.
whenever i try to say gd words infront of my frens.
you do all those stupid things make me sooooo damn ps lo.
i also din mention a words. pls la! you yurself also go reflect.
th way you talk really make peeps detest you. i din say only.
but you force me to! cant stand me? like i say,
just leave!!! go and find those frens treat you gd!
no one will stop you! you re th only person i met before.
so childish. thinking all this childish! i have my rite to do wad i wan.
to go with whoo i wantp. nid not you to say much d!
ask yurself la, dat time becos of you, how i face my mum through out!
bcos of im playful. those re-act make me regret alrite!
maybe you would think. we have nvr met each other before.
will be th best. i wont have to go through all dat.
lucky things, this prob din affect th r/s of me and my family.
th way you re now. make more detest you even more!
wake up! yur thinking should grow up!


labels: i wan to eat SUBWAY everyday!!!

my korkor d cute baby(:

dots........
at home th whole day.
im good girl rite? haha :DDD
donwan go out, go out jiu waste money.
so i just stay home and rest.
no work today.
no schedule. but nvm luh~
i become more and more poor. lol!
ltr have SUBWAY CLUB to eat.
yeaa! im edited eating subway.
i donno why also. jus like yummy!!!
thks for th SUBWAY urh(:
meeting B. ltr ^^ sure have alot to chat d.
nvr meet girlf today,
miss you lei! miss me too ok?
stop here 1st then.


P.S wadever to wish to wrote carry on ba, for wad i heard for wad you have done make me utra dissapointed lo. peeps just dont wan say out yur tail only alrite. for why they blame you for nth? did you do it you noe it yurself! and i got my rite to choose everything. nid not you to remind me! just look out for yurself can ler. you go on yur life better. we don suit to be lover also to be frens!

hellooooo :p
haha!
1st day of work at amk hub.
well! was still ok.
learn alot today.
th most ex i sell out is $34.90.
happy happy! total sales 300bucks plus.
not bad not bad! 3claps :D
finish work, off to cck play majong.
well, expected. lost! hees ^^
then C. & K. bring me go loyang paipai lei.
lol! take toto number. ^{dontink buying, no money!}
just back home. shall stop ler!
BYEE BYEE! C: