yupyup!
got new photo ^^
im fcuking pissed off today.
cos i cant wake up for my class.
and sick luh!
hais. wento see doc.
2days mc. ask me stay at home rest.
3medi. cost me 28bucks.
anw, aft doc i still can anyhow run.
donwan die die slp on th bed.
more sick lo!
went for hair extension.
with Gf. and B.
today whole was like so shag?
i donno why either.
no mood to hyper, no mood to joke.
was like so quiet today.
everything past.
let it over. i didnt take it to heart(:
went for prata,[but i didnt eat prata].
throat was swollen, cant eat heaty stuff.
well, although im sick.
i still got to for to work tmolo.
cos is my new job, and its 1st day.
donwan 1st day jiu giv peeps mc.
hope will recover by then :x
well shall stop here, tada!


labels: Love in the club!

hie! ):
im fcuking bad mood.
i was thinking th whole day.
i find it, why i do all this for?
why i nid to do to hurt myself?
back home at 2plus. im super tire.
but anyone noe why?
in th end let peeps say i attitude.
pls la, understand how i feel can?
wadever you say seem to be easy.
but it HURTS alrite.
down to mall with J. & M.
dinner at ICHIBAN.thks to J. ^^
my M. noe abt it.
i told her th whole truth.
and she say study more impt!
ya i agree(:
wad i most worried d. is alrdy over.
i♥my FAMILY th most.
have a long chat with my family.
i nvr knew, my mum is quite caring for me.
thks urh, my J. ask me to stay strong.
and i will d. back home, watch tv.
and chg my blogskins.
although its a plain skins.
its another date of th month.
haish!!! 3am now.
i still cant slp, flip here and there.
i feel tire but just couldnt close my eyes!
stop here then, BYEEE! ^^


label: th road i walk down, let me learn alot. learn how to stand up w/o any helping hands, no matter how hard it will be. i will stay strong!

P.S why whenever you say sry, i wouldnt be angry and just forgive you? i don bare. when th words speak out from yur mouth, my heart melt! no matter how i angry i would just forgive. why towards you my heart is always so soft hearted! i hate myself for being so soft hearted, i hate myself to act being strong infront of you when im not. im a girl, i also will be like a small girl wanting a person to dote me! dong ma?!

my heart feel so pain so pain,
my ahpui leave me ler!
im sry, i regreted left-ing you out.
i will always rmb you!!!
i will missssss you!!!
you're leaving me,
ahpui is leaving me.
one by one is leaving me.
im just leaft here alone.
i really feel very sad, imu!
i cried bitterly,
at dat moment i really wish....
you could be there for me.
be there hugging me, console me.
telling me everything will be fine.
but i doubt so.
cos......its alrdy 4days. totally no news!
i knew it, hope you re doing fine.
not much to blog.
cos i also donhave such mood to blog.
BYEEEEE!!!

hais.....
im was pretty moody...
my ahpui is sick!!!
im so worried!
dat ahpui will leave me!!!
i donwan! i don wish to feel lonely.
i rmb, always when im sad.
i will play with ahpui.
i left ahpui out this few days.
ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
stupid me.....urhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

im at home th whole day.
w/o gng out.
tmolo sch start.
and my project....
.
.
.
.

hais! group with peeps i donwan to.
no choice. i haveto!
let this project done.
and everything over.
leave this ITE. and graduate!
i donlike ITE life.
always being left out.
being push here and there for group project.
im human alrite.
if you don wish to group tgt.
tell me staright!
i can do myself d alrite.
but this time round must be in group.
bobian! like so sway!
fail in studies.
fail in life.
fail in r/s.
life like so sux!!!!
wadever lah!

my life is just like black&white.
no more colours anymore.
but....no matter wad...
i will still go on with my life.
cos i still have my Dearest!!!
alrite shall stop here. BUAI(:


labels: if you choose to let me go, then dont turn back anymore to hurt me. i don wish to be a fool in my life, cos you've nvr cherish me before! i don hate you, but i choose to forgive&forget for everything. if you choose to walk out of my life, i will respect you. takecare alrite!

hei-loh(:
not working today.
went out shopping with cute C. & Gf.
went TPY see chiobu. LMAO^^
then meet K.
went down bugis.
bought myself 2things.
cheapcheap d! cos no money ler.
become poor! ahhhhh....
yeaa! working new job soon.
thks to C.(:
come along with B.
down to cine.
wanted to watch movie.
in th end no money so to sentosa.
C. is rich urh~
bring us to a highclass place lo.
1st Degree Fifteen!!!
so beautiful.
i will get th photo from Gf.
and i will upload! sonice!!!
saw a stupid person!
i see you wrong i tell you!
fcuking up la you.
anw, im not jealous ok!
i donlike him at all!!!!!
up to Henderson Wave agn.
but this time round with Gf. acc!
so not alone ler! wahaha :p
back home not long.
gng slp soon! gng out agn tmolo.
i got to really thks all my fren being there with.
although i feel sad.
but you buys there always cheer me up!
thks sooooo much!
i feel glad, at least i still have you guys.
specially thks to C. and K.
always bring me out to have fun.
bring me to alot of place dat i nvr been before.
also my Dearest Gf. and Baby!!!
i love you both th most!!!
wahahaha~ cos went i wanted to do something silly.
you all would always there to talk to me.
ah muacks muacks! hees ^^
and to my so called DaDa.
i noe no matter how i say you,
you will still always be there for me no matter wad.
im here to say sry for everything.
and thks so much so much!
i noe you always quan me not to be silly.
cos you just wan me to be happy.
i noe, givme time. all i nid is time.
to heal back. my wound is too deep!
thks urh~ do things, think before you do.
don always let ppl scold you or say you.
dong ma? and no money ler don play majong.
save abit la. if not 1day you nid it then no money.
you re also my Drearest fren alrite.
im so glad so glad to have you this fren(:
BYEEEEE :DDDD



why imu so much?
when i really wish to see you.
why would we noe each other?
if not i wouldnt get hurt so deeply.
why would i fall in love with you?
when i noe yur heart is not with me.
why you choose to leave me when im willing to chg?
im just not worth for th chance.
why am i left alone here when you wish to leave just laidat?
im just in th dark.
why i couldnt forget you, th memories we have?
its alrdy kept deep down in my heart!
why whenever im out i feel like buying things for you?
and i noe i couldnt anymore.
why we choose to be together?
when you told we don suit being tgt!
why cant we hold on this r/s when we face diffculties?
issit so hard to do so?
why cant i be in your heart?
when i alrdy do so much for you yet you re loving someone else.
why am i choose to run away from r/s?
i just scare of getting hurt agn.
why i just love you so deep?
when you don love me anymore.
why i keep waiting for yur msg or call?
when i noe you wouldnt.
why everything you promise to me?
everything turn out to be a lie!!!
why am i still waiting for you?
when i noe is alrdy hopeless.
why when i noe you don love me anymore?
and i still willing to do anything just FOR YOU!

hello.
didnt wento blog much cos,
i might closing my blog soon.
dats my blog, i like to type wad i like.
DON NDI ANY COMMENTS!!!
not happy just leave alrite,
u wan u read. donwan then jolly fcuk off~
i hate ppl comments alrite!
i chg not bcos of anyone!
get this clear, even it is.
not yur prob alrite?
i hate th changes of myself, so?
i chg ler jiu shi chg.
not H. not anyone alrite?
around me things chg, ofcos i will chg.
not bcos of ppl! u donno wad really happen.
then just shut up alrite?
ahhhhhhh......fcuking pissed off la!
anw, just got this news, no lesson for tmolo!
yeayea! so it means dat mon then go back for lesson(:

as for my FYP project,
i didnt blame you too.
suan ler. not yur fault.
decission is not on you too.
its alrite. i will still find a group.

anw, my DEAR FRENS. cheerup.
ppl do have up and down.
kan kai ba :DDD
bball girls will be there for you d(:

labels: i will still go on with my life.
mood: piss-ed off!

hello(:
back to blogging.
im guai today,
wake up ontime.
slept at 4am plus yet,
yet still can wait up.
pei this lame A. talk on phone
so tire man!
yet reach sch early sia.
cos jie cab me to sch dats why early.
LOL!
reach sch is like sians.
time more sians!
every tues lesson hrs so short!!!!
myself don go!!!
ahhhhh.....pissed off of wad happen in sch.
thks to A. for talking on th phone with me.
ya, i will be strong.
thks for all th encouragement.
although we noe each other not long,
but you re a nice fren afterall.
so ppl donthink much alrite.
inside me still have H.
nth can be compare! i still love H.
wento have dinner with A.
he wanna fetch me to point,
insist of saying no thks.
so meet at point lo,
walk there, slack at 974.
like so bored so im back home early.
they re still slacking ba.
tmolo and fri no class! so gd :DDD


no matter how long i take,
i will do anything just to forget you.
although inside me is pain.
i will overcome it.
i noe i can, and i noe i will be fine ^^

hais! sians.
i think i nid to face alot of things tmolo.
and i will be facing myself.
anw, don nid th help ler.
thks. hais! stupid me.
dumb! find prob to face myself.
everyday will be nagging day for me.
seriously, i feel like crying.
my mum is like stupid thinking can!
she can nvr believe me.
i feel like leaving this house rite now!

ahhhhhhhh..............
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
im still struggling through.
but why should i?
i should have let go.
cos there's no hope anymore.
no one will worried for me,
no one will be there.
im just left alone. all alone!

im really tire,
when can i have a real rest?
im tire crying for you,
im tire worrying for you,
im tire doing so much things for you.
im sooooo tire bcos of you.
why should i be sad when you don even bother?
why should i cry when you don even noe?
why should i worry when u're enjoying?
why should i sacrified so much when i get treated like shit?!
why should i get drunk when i miss you.
so much so much im gng through.
who understand? who bother?
i rather i don wake up every morning.
when i open my eyes, my tears roll down.
when i open my eyes, i felt so lonely.
pls! wake me up! i donwan to get on this life anymore.

th feeling is PAIN!
i donno wad should i do now.
i find myself chg so much,
sometimes i do hate myself dat i've chg!
hais! everything gonna be over.
maybe make it this way will be better.
i noe i will be fine(:

no matter how hard i try,
its alrdy no use! not anymore,
just awake only, tears....just...hais!
suan ler! i wouldnt be silly enough!
this few days im just so tire!
but i wouldnt wanto leave myself at home.
i slept for like few hrs and wento work.
do alot of silly things! stupid alrite!
just like no one care at all!
fcuk off from my sight!
I HATE YOU DEEPLY!
i will nvr do so much for you!
nvr!!! i just like a fool to use let u make use!

yoyo!
its 6am plus in th morning.
im here to blog sia!
wah! 3days im back home late ler.
diao -.-! majong just now, win!
yeaa! lucky only.
down to pont slack and just back.
not tire luh~
will be watching 篮球火 then slp.
tmlol working agn!
everyday! GOOD(:
4days and i will be back to sch ^^
oh yes, yth i learn to drive sia. LOL!
shall stop ler, BYEEEE!


P.S suan ler ba :p

R. & K.

Me. & R. look like wad? so funny luh.

iny!

wahahaha! hello^^
instead of slacking at home,
i wento chomp chomp work.
not busy at all! so free.
finish work at 1130pm.
K. came to fetch me along with R.
new fren! he's funny la.
1st time noe me so friendly ler.
back home bath and chg.
go C. hse fetch her.
down to mount faber & sentosa!
wento henderson wave.
its so nice! i nvr been there before.
yth is th 1st time!
they noe i nvr go they bring me go.
so nice of there, was talking with C.
while th 2guys was slping, haha :DDD
go on to sentosa, play with water and sand.
they build donno wad like,
while i was standing at there looking at th sea.
i feel so pain so pain! imy so much!
put away all th sadness and join em!
i post th photo, build till so funny luh!
then to a place ride donno wad lorry la!
haha :DDD take photo!
back home alrdy 6am in th morning(:
slp at 7am, and awake at 1plus.
photo time ^^

♥Gfren: i understand! so no matter how or wear re you i will be there for you. a shoulder will always to let you lean on, my phone will always be on 24hrs. call me or sms if you nid me! i noe how u feel, i feel miserable too. cheerup! study hard. takecare alrite(: loveyou! muacks! :DDD

labels: no phone call, no sms! you noe how much imy?!

woah!
nvr go work yth due to something on.
but wasted not to go work,
cos.......hais! no point saying!
suan ler. im just stupid enough!
to do so much!
lucky i was NOT LEFT ALONE!!!
late nite drinking with C. fren
4guys 3girls. Gfren with me too ^^
omg! her fren bring us to pub luh.
donno wad LIP PUB! not very sure.
keep asking us to drink.
beer taste is so sux to drink!
ppl in th pub all damn high!
their fren got 2 also very high lo.
drink finish wento sentosa.
enterence fees is free.
thks to C. d card luh.
went there. their fren continue buy beer drink.
dots! th ask me to drink 8.8% d beer.
is SPECIAL BREW! so ku! eeeee!
no nice at all lo!
all donwan drink, then th guy keep ask me drink.
and i drink whole BIG CAN by myself lo.
not drunk, but very high lo!
woah! drink ler sure high ah.
plus before dat drink alot.
it been soooooooo long i drink so much.
3rd time! but th feeling is so high,
make me forget all th pain!
K. came to fetch us,
wento newton there eat.
cos candy was complaining hungry.
eat finish back home alrdy 5am plus.
bath ler wento slp!

awake by my bro!
slept for like 6hrs plus only!
tire la! ahhhhhhh.....
wake up!th pain still there.
in th end now, hang over.
my head now is sooooo heavy sia!
lucky i didnt get drunk.
i still rmb wad am i doing.
i donno why i will msg H.
but......my hand just type.
i only noe i msg H.
but not so sure wad i type.
im sry! disturb dao ni.
my bro baby become more & more heavy.
so cute la. haha :DDD
shall stop here ler, TATA!


labels: 爱你爱的好辛苦!

hais!
i only slept for 4hrs plus only,
slept at morning 8am.
and wake up at 12plus.
just couldnt slp back ler!
so tire lo, plus moody!
gng work ltr. gd! earn money.
rather then staying at home,
nthing to do and think much.
9more days and i will be back to sch.
holiday pass so fast ^^
shall stop here ler, tata!


labels: wad am i to you?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
pissed off!
cos inside me is super disappointed.
although i play majong win.
is like, why??? hais.
another wan, donno wad happpen?
play majong through out black face.
not th 1st time ler lo.
hais! im always sooooo fcuk to you rite?
say words dat so fcuk up.
im just a fcuk up person,
dats why im living in a fcuk up life.
everything cock up.
is like life so tire can!
everyone is tire of alot alot of stuff!
somehow if im not born out,
i wouldnt live till so pain, so meaningless!
like baby say, i alrdy say things more than 10times.
which i say ler, then another words.
hais! i didnt want it d.
if i am black hearted enough,
everything will be totally diff ler.
is hard for make to make up choice.
sometimes, choices is made up.
but in th end just hurting yurself.
yet u noe, but u will feel dosent matter.
when disappointment is made up too.
u will find it soooo meaningless!
why to ppl in life have to make a difficult choice!
was like so tire, suppose to slp now.
but in my mind so much so much flash through!
i donno, i really donno!
wad am i really doing is right or wrong?
i feel so helpless at times.
i really.........donno wad to do!



P.S don make use of me, if im nthing to u alrite. its hurt to do so. im human, i will be pain. i may fall and stand up myself. it would be easy to fall, but its hard to stand agn. th scar is there! tell me, how should i do?! how?!

hohohoh ^^
didnt wento work yth,
was feeling so headache la.
cos didnt have enough slp,
play too much majong ler! LOL!
wah ah! wento interview th promoter.
is like no news? dots. walk all th way in.
for th interview under th sun,
in th end no news! bluff d. diao -.-!
well well, today no schedule on banquet.
1 more day no money, at home so bored can!
go working better, although tire but can earn.
ahhhhhhh! sians.
hmm.......im gng crazy soon!
and and QI JI! im gng jogging ltr.
yeaa! exercise more good for health!
WAHAHAH! anw, nth to do also so go jog lo.
waiting for my 蓝球火 to release new ep.
faster faster! im anxious to watch it.
XiaoZhu so cute can! WuZun handsome!
lalalalalah~ go crazy talking abt em.
hees ^^ stop typing ler. BYEEEE!
sometimes my mind would think,
if she dosent appear infront.
will everything be a diff story?


labels: im happy, really! its enough(:
mood: joyful!