Baby, I Love You Like You Do(:

2010-05-01T22:21:00.006+08:00

Oh..i donno when was my last update ler..
I'm just lazy to blog ler..

I had a great 20th B'day.
Thanks to all my dearest friends that attend my BBQ,
And all the present given by you all.
So sorry to all of YOU that i'm not very attentive enough on that day.
I was too busy to serve too many people.
And.
And.
And.
GREATLY thanks to my ♥♥♥Dearest BF.
For ordering the big cute cake, b'day present n the dinner.
I enjoy it so much.
I♥You!

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I got must Present that i like(:
♥Coach Sling Bag, Coach Coin Pouch, LongChamp Bag..
♥Music Headphone,Iphone Casing,Pierre Cardin Wallet..
♥Slipper,Earring,Necklence & Every Little Things!!!
MUACKS!!! ♥♥♥

And i change my blog song ler ^^

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It's been so long i had my shopping & gathering with Dearest!
It's so great shopping with GF yesteday,
And had Swsensen for dinner.
Got myself 4Tops&2Bottom for my Dearest BF! ^^

It's so great shopping with family too!
Had Tim Sum at Goodwood Park Hotel.
But Dear left to work, so sad that i can't CON his $$$,
Will claim from him later luh. HAHAH!
And so. Continue to shop,
Jie&Aunty bought for me 2Items & got myself 2Tops&2Bottom.
Sooooooo GREAT! :DDD

♥I treasure everyone that treasure me (:

2010-03-20T13:37:00.004+08:00

I think i should update if not..

my boy gonna kill me ^^

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this days like so tire n tire..

cos i've been working n working..

and my cute boy have been there for me..

whenever i'm not well, i'm down..

he would be there on th phone n talk to me..

console me..n will pop up at my doorstep to surprise me..

those times i couldn't understand your working time..

throw useless attitude at you..

but you never give up..you will still hong me..

those time i just feel things had changes..

but when times goes..i feel th love for me..

you've never change at all..always there...

i'm so thankful i've you by my side all this while..

face together with my unhappiness n happiness..

n for th 1week you on leave..suppose to be

letting yourself to have a good rest..

but you didn't..you will prepare breakfast b'for i go work..

bring lunch for me when i'm at work..

and will come to work place fetch me..

bring me out for dinner..

hug me tightly when we re sleeping at night..

and will wake up early in th morning to wake me up..

and do th same things for th 1week..

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DEAR BOY! thks you very very much! muacks ^^

2010-02-17T01:22:00.004+08:00

I MISS YOU DEEPLY!
my dear boy will be back in 6hrs. ^^
so anxious to see him later.
i miss his smile, kiss kiss, hug hug & everything!
so great i can meet him in a few hrs time.
tmolo will buy breakfast for you.
included if you hungry la. HAHA :DDD
im gonna slp and wake up early to meet him!(:
x3love you! ^^

2010-02-13T18:27:00.004+08:00

Hey people out there! HAPPY TIGER YEAR ^^

so excited to have steamboat with family.
tmolo will be 1st day of CNY kum valentine too.
haha! so different this yr.
my dear boy went back to m'sia.
i miss him so much can! hmm..
but its ok luh. we have a early celebration.
yur funny surprise was really fool by u la.
thks for th bouquet with bear&flowers and Iphone!
muacks! i love both of d valentine present ^^
looking forward dat you will to be back on wed!

wento medi&pedicure with jie and back home.
phone with my zhuzhu. ^{i miss your everything!}
and now waiting for steamboat lo. HAHA! :DDD

ps. miss you miss you!!!!

2010-02-08T23:45:00.011+08:00

~~Im not happy!!!~~

got so much unhappiness kept inside my heart.
words is always meant to be broken.
things do chgs, it chges when you don't xpect to.
work is not happy.
r/s is still fine for me.
but nobody understand how i feel.

for so long i din update ler.
i tort i could update some happy moments.
but sad to say, it's not!
some kind of tire. seem not to be.
not at th right, not at th right moment.
i should say, i prefer to be carefree.
w/o any stress. somehow, i wish to turn back to child.
with freedom, carefree.
play like how i wanto be, laugh like how i use to be.
is so enjoyable!
sry if my words hurt you if you see this.

ps. it wont be same even if how hard you try )':

2009-11-21T23:21:00.005+08:00

♥♥♥i enjoy my time with you around by my side!(:

2009-11-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

im super tire..down with alot of work..
ot here and there..woosh`
hope it would over soon yay..
catch up some shopping and chit-chatting w.ling
it's been so long we both last met..
after all is still enjoying luh(:
lasting with your pretty boy urh!
back to dear hse after that..
catching up movie w.dear ltr oh.
its been so long we din have time to catch movie..
hees ^^ now at his hse waiting for him to finish work yay..
will update again..&&& im just to lazy to upload photo..

will update real real soon..

Edited:

i was off on last wednesday..time off for me..
~~didnt manage to go Zoo~~ w.dear..
which we postpone for so long ler..
due to th weather for this month is not good..
and late of waking up..i was just too tire..
but i got to thks my dear for asking me to off..
i got 1 burberry perfume from my sis for x'mas present..
cost her a bomb on dat day..
whole i only spent 10bucks..th rest my sis pay..
so shiok lo! so early receive x'mas present ler(:
afterall is so fun&tiring shopping on dat day..
&&&dear acc both of us shopping w/o complaining..
thks so much so much! and make him carry so much stuff!
i feel im baddy! but..hmmm..i noe i noe..
my zhuzhu is always th one treating me th best ler!
muacks :D

For whoever James:

Anw, i didnt noe wad ling have write "officially missing you" all this stuff. i write it just bcos of i heard this song alright. i din do anything to let you write, but if you insist of writing more i cant do anything. i'll just delete wadever you write. Pls! get a life. so tagging anything which is not true, it may feel hurts wadever you write. i don need any comments in btw me & my bf.

2009-11-08T02:52:00.005+08:00

my blog is rotting..
smelly zhuzhu always complain..
my blog nvr update!
nah lah nah lah! update ler lo..
just celebrate my dearest vinnie bday(:
so much photo, fun in th hotel..
haha :D its really so damn high..
cos..got ppl say drunk words..LOL!
i noe im bad to say this luh, but not me luh..
hmm..coming up is fen celebration..
grace(blacky) bbq celebration..
but cant meet up dear much luh..
he will be busy working..^{i'll miss you}
photo will update soon..
im just lazy to do so luh..hees!

so fast..its alrdy 3months! i love you. muacks!
thks for being by my side all this while..
im happy enough to have you by my side! :D

2009-10-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

kind of sians looking forward when weekend reach..

its rather boring..find own planning agn..

i could nvr say anything..

2009-10-14T20:20:00.004+08:00

wahahah..well, dear bday is over..

i acc him for this 4days..

i feel so sinful! i will get more fatter..

zhuzhu d fault lo! i've been eating..

bcos of his celebration bday..

and out with dearest..

Saturday night,

meet with dear n his fren..

dinner at Turkish Cafe & Restaurant..

Sunday morning,

JB trip..city square&holiday plaza..

all back with 大小包..

reach SG..cabbed home..

overnight at zhuzhu hse..

Monday afternoon,

Mr.Sim bday luh~ happy bday! :D muacks.

get steamboat ingredient at fairprice..

full luh~ walkwalk with dear after steamboat..

my stomach almost burst!

Tuesday night,

dinner with dear fren at VIENNA(if im not wrong)..

kind of buffet..wah eat eat eat!

so damn sinful!

have been eating for 4days! goosh~

but it was great to spent this days with AhZhu!

will upload photo again..

2009-10-08T00:20:00.005+08:00

hmmm..zhuzhu is complaining why i didnt update.

busy with work, out with colleague, with zhuzhu..

so i just lazy to update..

bernard bday just over only..

celebrate with him..went pubbing..

was pull by colleague to dance floor..

force to dance lo..dat day so high lo..

but have so much fun..kind of bad luh..

im enjoying..while zhuzhu working..too bad :p

im looking forward this sunday JB trip luh..

like finally..i can go oversea with zhuzhu & dearest..

shopping is all i wan..wahahah :DDD

photo time..(:

thks for surprise..

from Mr.Sim Zhuzhu ^^

two months past so fast..
i love u more n more each day..
thks for everything(: muacks!

2009-09-21T02:04:00.002+08:00

i was like mia urh...didnt update so long..
not bcos i have bf i mia alrite..
hmm..so much things i been through..
im just broke now..wanna find work and chiong..
so i wont have a boring weekend..
all my fren just busy dating, but me...lol!
nah~~~nvm! hmm..nothing much to update...
just lazy to update photo..
will update when i got th feeling to do so ba..

our 1stmonth..is so memories..
th surprise from you..
i love th moment spending with you on th flyer..
and everything lil you do for me..
thks so much so much! :D
muacks urh! x3lovelove! xD

2009-08-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

i got so much photo to blog..
i got so much to say how i been through..
but i just lazy to do so..
i blog all photo when im free..

boyfriend,
past days by days..we been through..
i learn wad u teach..i listen to wad u've told me..
each time of give in..you make me love u even more..
u will nvr disappoint me..
full of suprise..full of planning..
so much laughter when im with u..
th joy dat we share..so much so much..
i don really noe how to use words to describe how its feel..
but still thks so much..muacks!
im wrong at times..yet you always give in..
i learn wad i've done wrong each time when i throw temper..
simple from me..i love you(*:

2009-08-13T00:27:00.005+08:00

well...this post was requested by my boyfriend!
keep ask me update whereby n'thing to blog..
make sure u better tag my board after viewing hor! haha:D

so update yth d ba..dots! im sick..mc for 1week.
take half day yth..cant tahan ler..
dear came to fetch me to see doc..
go his hse there see doc..
cos he don allow me to go home..
scare nobody takecare of me..
was shiock when doc let me see my degree..
39.2 degree sia! cannot play play..
doc say till like im high risk of kanna H1N1 lo..
1week mc..not allow to go work at all..WTF!~
6medicine cos me a bomb!!! ~~94bucks!!! ):~~
back to his hse..eat abit, medicine..
and boom..down to slp ler..
till 5plus..he wento work..continue slp..
his sister bought me dinner..yet i didnt eat..
all th way slp till he come back..
ate 1 mayo egg bread dat he bought for me..
manage to finish up 3/4 of it..guai enough ler hor!
medicine again..and slp back again..
he been by my side all th way..
didnt slp well lo him..hais..must have tired him ler..
morning wake up bring me back home..
reach home..eat abit..medicine again..
like so er xin lo..6medicine ah..BEST urh~
all th way keep slp, wake up...
all th way nua-ing at home lo..so dead lo!
lazy to update but dear keep ask me update he wan see..
talk with me on th phone.. say wan me sing for him..
sing ler..in th end fall aslp now ler! haha :D
also good luh~ he didnt have enough slp since past few days..
been busy and worried bcos of me! sry wor..
hmmm...n'thing much to continue to write ler ^^

♥♥♥i love my boyfriend to th max!

he is th sweetest boyfriend i ever know..

no matter how tire is he..he will always be there..

he been taking care of me so much so much!

i was lucky to have him by my side..

after i've face so much things in my life..

he is there to guide me..takecare of me :D

and i know..no matter wad i will cherish him..

he is th one i wish to treasure now..

muacks! Dear thks urh(:

2009-08-09T23:16:00.004+08:00

ohyea! i love my weekends..

i spent my weekends with my dearest ones..

FRIDAY...

as usual wento work..bfren fetch me to work..

finish work..makeup and here we go..

with my dearest colleague..our happy hr!

wento cine sing k kum BuFei dinner..

so full! ev'thing end at 10plus for k session..

wento to meet fen fren and our drinking session..

wento some wear near cnetre point there d bar..

which i forget wad name..its quite relaxing..

and also i forget wad's th name of th drinks i order..

only rmb i drink turquila pop(abit spelling error)

games, chit-chatting..ev'thing end at arond 2am.

i didnt go home..meet girl there..

colleague cabbed home..while gfren pei me wait for bfren..

ended up i pei gfren go take NRbus..

waited for bfren like hrs to finish his work..

back to his hse rest aound morning 4am..

slept at morning 5am plus while he still playing game..

and here i go into my dreamland ^^

SATURDAY...

Was awake by bfren at around 11am near to noon..

he wento buy lunch for me..

finish eating, rest and watch tv..

around noon 2plus we change and down to orchard to shop..

shop till evening acc him to work..

and down to bedok meet aunty..

wento gaint with her..and buy things for her..

bus back home..reach home alrdy 11plus..

bath and to my lahlah land..

SUNDAY...

wake up morning..wento meet bfren around afternoon..

bought lunch for meet..and he send to work..

went back work..around evening wento to orchard w.fen

hongkong cafe for dinner..pass hp for bfren to use..

and continue to shop..esprit for fren clothes..

then converse for bfren shirt..

nth much..train and bused home..

reach home early..here come my blogging time..

a weird feeling i have today..

we been through this days together..

it's really a happy moment we spent tgt..

we met by chances..this chances..

let me learn to cherish wadever i have..

i feel bless..thks so much!

you always will nvr fail to make my day :D

nvr fail to be there whenever i need someone..

its a love like romeo & juliet♥♥♥

2009-08-07T09:41:00.003+08:00

woah! is like been so long i didnt update..

was enjoy for last few weekends with girls&guys..

we wento alot of places..

i enjoy alot with em..thks so much yay!

donno wad to blog..

but just don wan my blog to be so dead..

so i came here to update abit..

will be drinking tonite w. my dearest vinnie girl & cliques..

might meet girlf today..its been long i last meet here..

i miss my girlf ^^

looking forward for tonite..haha :D

you will always think of ppl before you do anything..

we met by chances, dat was you to let th 1st step out..

and i willing to go on by wad you done..thks!

i nvr noe i got this chance to have you..

yet bcos of you no more playing for me, i settle down..

move on th step..trust from me to you..

my dear, iloveyou♥♥♥

2009-07-23T18:05:00.002+08:00

my life now is just play...

nite life...ev'thing since to be in a mess..

i donno wad i wan in my life..

pple i've met..seem to be a lie..

sweet talk is just of human life..

it always not a good feeling i have..

i don need guys anymore..

i just wanto live on by myself..

this period all my frens been through w/me..

i realise n'thing matter anymore..

w/frens around me will be enough..

i've hurt alot of guys..im sry!

i prefer to be single..

after him..i seem to be tire of r/s...

if i've not wasted th 2years waiting..

my life wont be so torture d feeling...

sick is coming around me always...

when can i recover? i donwan to get sick ler..

being slping through out from yth nite..

i have enough rest..really feel great xD

at home th whole day..haha :D

drinking, rounding, shopping, working is all i have now..

i enjoy it alot! but my mind just donno wad's gng on...

woosh~~~ complicated!

this few months..alot of things i've seen..

wahahahah! things happen around me...

well...i will still be good for my life..i enjoy..

at least i don feel hurt or sad anymore..but complicated!

2009-07-09T13:51:00.000+08:00

im sick for days ler..

went prawning w.ah mao & candy..

i donno went was it..

keep go out play till fall sick..

well..i forget wad i need to blog wad for past few days..

hmm..i vomit this few days..

ahh..im sick and tire lo..

slept whole day..but tmolo gng out..

w.my collegue go drink luh..

yay! a guy open 1 martell for me..

i was like so shock lo..anw, thks lot to him(:

让我们有彼此的时间来想吧..
顺其自然了吧..

2009-07-05T06:22:00.000+08:00

什么都已经不重要了..

我只想开心的过我的生活..

我只需要一个人..

everything is just not meant to be..

and it'll nvr be..

i've been through all this times..

i noe wad i want it to be ler..

i will stop my step here..

and go on by myself..

and i noe it's a right choice..

2009-06-30T01:20:00.004+08:00

i miss FU0701M man!!!

it so long we last meet since we graduate!!!

this class is so fun. so much memories.

some work, so go poly...

we shall have a gathering alrite(:

and th best tcher dat help me th most..

MSshili, i miss you so much too.

and gratz you have a cute baby ^^

27June.

like finally, my ahkor book out ler on fri!

we met up on sat nite..

he slim down luh to me, more blacky liao.

got to takecare urh!

went to shisha with kor, boonling, jacob&jeremy.

nthing d lo, like no kit! haha :D

cab back hougang, prata with em.

jacob and kor eat only..i drink luh!

lol! after dat went majong session till morning..

28June.

so tire till nvr go back office..

slack at hme th whole day la..

meetup with candy at nite as she wanto have dinner..

acc her for dinner..slack at hse nearby!

meetup with accident boy, bao until like mummy!

so funny! but also kelian luh, blood~

after dat ahmao sent me home sweet home..

29June.

didnt wento work today due to some reason..

and rest at hme th whole day..

will be back to work tmolo! sry ppl..let u all worry(:

so tire yet just cant slp!!!

only post some short post wad i been thorugh..

got not much times to blog..

hmm...my life now is full of schedule!

is no more ~~MEANINGLESS LIFE~~ for me ler ^^

im much more more happier..

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but with this 2guys in my life..im just to confuse!!!

so much things im confuse..i really donno wad should i do?!

should i give a try for you or let go MR.C?

hais..i appreciate wad you have done..

all those morning call, dote me, sent me hme whenever i am..

no matter how late u will be there, lack of slp bcos of me..

and alot more! i really scare of gng through a new one..

MR.C also treat me well like you do...hais!

everything was gng on in my mind, is either you or him!

urhhhhhh!!! confuse..maybe i should more focus of work..

dats maybe is wad i really wan ba..ahhhhhhh!!!!!! ):

2009-06-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

woohoo...
long long no blog...
blog become sians sians ler..
nth much to blog luh..
last weekend went swimming..
donno when was my last swimming ler!
so happy when im in th pool..
swim and swim lo! wahahah :D
hmm...was tire of working ler..
my company is like shit! my boss more sux..
no planning skill..my job like only help to
clean SHIT for ppl lo! wth~
tire tire! fall sick luh..hais!
one photo is up! is me and fen..

2009-06-16T01:49:00.003+08:00

i tort i got no feeling for u..

yet i miss u so much this days..

i think i fall inlove with u..

i donno why, in my mind..

all was just yur image..

i regret i let it go just laidat..

afterall..it's really sweet of you..

when we 1st knew..

u re there when i really need someone..

w/o asking, in msn u re th one pop out..

and be there for me..thks for th 1 week we been tgt ^^

all th best and takecare yay(:

if i have not made a wrong choice..

i wouldnt regret it so much ler )':

2009-06-09T00:35:00.003+08:00

wow! SAT was cool for me!

went for so called celebration for my Dearest,

jason KORKOR...he gng army ler!

i will this dearest fren, 2years past very fast d.

wento for dinner, and some drinking at liquid kitchen(:

was fun and we laugh like hell..cos of joker ah! LOL.

went shopping with Jie&Aunty on SUN!

dinner had jap food for us, and bought stuff for myself!!!

i spent my weekend to th fullest!!! :DDD

well...everything end, but i seem to be alright.

maybe wad i was thinking it was just a crush!

anw, i got to thks C. for this week. he is a nice guy!

maybe we don suit, you will find a better one.

but if it's not you, till now i still haven let go th previous d.

afterall...we re still fren! and im glad to noe you.

cos got 1more majong kaki liao! wahahahah!!!

maybe will busy down with work for days...

will update if im free yay!

this weekend was planned! omgggg...busy!

i have a better life now, and im enjoying ^^

got to end here yay! NITE(:

2009-06-05T23:06:00.003+08:00

finally im off today, i take leave to acc bf.
meet bf in th afternoon, im late!
and he waited for me 1hrs plus, so guilty!
he's nice! love him many many :DDD
at his hse now, like bored!
he playing bball while i waiting at his hse.
nth much to do, so came blogging!
tmolo go njoy ler! ps bf. HAHA!
saw his parent was like scary, afterall.
they re very very friendly, especially his mum!
crazy over th show Boys Over Flower!
damn nice in korean! wah....sweet!
hmmmms....nth much to blog.
shall update photo if i have ya!(:

BYEBYE!

2009-06-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

wah! so long i didnt update luh...

rotting soon...dots!!!

finally went shopping today...no ot sia!

nth caught my eyes although alot of offer...

well...got to save money yay!

fish and co. for dinner! wah, great xD

went gucci, coach...SGS!

but donwan waste money buy...

so just window shopping....

back home not long..gtg stop her(:

~~re you really th right one?~~

~~like im th one trying to hold on this r/s.~~

~~hais! tire ):~~

2009-05-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

not enough slp for this few days..
OT..OT..OT..so much things to do..
nvr reach 11pm don need reach hme..
got so much to worried abt..
slept at 2am and wake up at 7am this days..
im tire..but got things need to settle..
stress over work..worried over things..
all i have to overcome it agn..
im not telling anyone not bcos i wanto anti.
is i donno how should i say..
~~but my worried wont be him anymore..~~
~~cos we re over..i knew..it dosent matter..~~
more things i need to concern abt..
i just hope this period of time..
let me settle wad i should do..
i got to stand up and go on..and i will(:

在想..有时侯你会感觉到..

那些痛我所经过的吗?

2009-05-15T00:54:00.003+08:00

nth to comments for tonight,

but i only can..............

finally i can slp well tonite ler...

ended....(:

woah!

my company fren sure gonna be touch...

bought mini cup cake,

liang-teh for those gng sick...

haha! :D:D:D

come on! boooohoooo~

2009-05-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

woke up early for work...
work was still tire for me...
back home, and here it goes...
have a rest...
it would be hard for this period of time...
i can overcome all this hard time(:
awaiting for this KL trip..
i wanna go have fun and relax myself! ^^
no photo for this few update...
been busy working...
will upload once i have photo to do so.

~~it dont feel good at all..~~

2009-05-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

i've tried so hard...
but no point for letting one person to tried...
trying dont feel good...
well well well.....
its over~!
wahliao! tmolo sat still need go back work sia!
tire man! mon PH luh...
tort can rest in th end need go back work also...
iyo! work and work! its tire la...
sick just recover only...
need to take over so much things luh...
urhhhhhh...JIAYOU ba!
nth much to blog luh~ so BYEBYE!

anw, 2more days to MOTHER's DAY...

if im not wrong ba, wish whole world d mum...

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!

alrdy bought mum to eat tonite...

haha :DDD

2009-05-04T04:36:00.003+08:00

new blogskins luh...

very sians with my skin...

its 4am plus now aand...

im still awake now!

wahahahahah~

tmolo work sure die luh...

nth much to blog too...

im leading a better life now(:

~~regreted putting so much effort in.~~

~~you re th one dat let me love you deeply.~~

~~indeed you re th one dat hurt me th most.~~

2009-04-25T04:25:00.002+08:00

days pass so fast urh....

its another weekend mean my rest day...

but next month straight 7days work...

alot of ppl say i got no life...

ya i agree...just donwan to spent weekend at home...

go out...go out...i don need any rest...

nth to spent on...just wanto work...

im moving on...nvr look back...

in my 19years of life...

its gone...i've nvr so upset before...

i spent it myself at home...

no matter how...i nvr left you alone...

but you left me...how heartless it could be...

所有过去全都变成伤害...

我像个傻子一样的被你出卖...

一字一句都要我承担...

nah la~ nth to talk abt u anymore...

how silly am i to think of making album for you...

was running like hell to look for it...

but why should i? u've nvr appricate...

and yet im still doing so much...why?

i donno why towards i just cant hate...

but just don bare to...

dat is th feeling of how you love someone?

have you felt before?

i cry on this days...just bcos...

you make me really heartbrk...

you noe th feeling of it? you felt it?

nth is fair in this...really nth...

who can be more fair to me? why?

hais.....i just want to vent out...

i hope this will be th last post blogging abt you....

shijie, jasper, kendrick n xiong came to my hse...

celebrate my so belated bday...

play majong with em...FUNNY luh xspecially kendrick...

1st time learner but he pick up very fast! haha :D

have supper with em..and th cabbed me home...

thks guys ah! well! i wan meet up em more.

seriously i mis em so much.... most of em go army!

we will have a big gathering aft 2yrs?

you all say d ah! takecare guys.

OT make me so tire lo...rushing so much work...

back home slp, next day work...

NO LIFE AT ALL! lol.

hmmm....not gonna continue ler...

update agn ya! its almost 5am luh...

slping ler...gng out in th afternoon...

meeting ah beng luh! crazy guy! BYE(:

2009-04-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

this was only a few photo for bday celebration....

haha:D so far was great!

thks ppl who wish me, celebrate with me and present...

but on my actual bday...

i stay at home th whole day...

well...i noe bday is not a big deal...

i get a best present ever in my 19years of life...

strike 12am...i din smile! i cry...

but...all was past...i wouldnt think back ler...

you both choose this way...i accept it!

takecare la both...thks so much for everthing!

shall stop here...next month...

straight 7days will be working ler...

wont be blogging much...BYE!

2009-04-16T00:15:00.004+08:00

well.... i just to got to noe...
wadever i looking was just.... my dream... im awake!
well...sometimes...
at some moment..ppl can be so reality!
can just chg whenever they wish to...
wadever they want..wahaha! this yr is a lousy yr...
nth make me happy..im just using work to buried myself...
not to think much..if i only i can be moreblack hearted...
i wont always let ppl to make use...
nah~ i promise i will smile infront of you...
infront of em...i will! well, takecare luh!
i donno issit you re really busy ma...
but just takecare...i leave this days to you...
wadever issit...how it will be...
this days you don cherish...then suan ler..
dats all i've to say to you...
to em...nvr ever this disappointed luh!
nahhhhhhhh....forget it!
wadever issit! nth matters anymore!

2009-04-14T02:49:00.002+08:00

im not looking forward for this yr bday anymore.........

for all of yur info.

i don nid any celebration this yr.

i just wanna be alone.

i don nid cake or present.

dat dosent matter to me.

nths matter to me now, NTH!

maybe something i prefer hiding

at one corner alone.

sleepless everynight is wad i have.

njoying is wad you have.

nth gonna chg my mind, NTH!

2009-04-11T05:51:00.004+08:00

cool! right now is 5:57am ler.

i still awake!....LOL!

just reach home luh...

is like been slacking out late at nite this days...

well...is pretty good la!

erh...7more hrs i will be gng out ler!

sure tire d lo!

its been like yearssssssss....

i didnt go zoo ler lo!

gng with my dearest ones ltr on ohh !

i miss meeting em!

so anxious abt it la....haha:D

OMG urh! 8more days to go....

gogogo VONNE!

th feeling is fading away...i realise...

i use to it ler...it dosent matter to me...

cos you prove me i just a nobody...

a nobody to stand at...not even a corner of it.

thks lei huh! 我的爱早已经不痛了...

2009-04-09T01:22:00.003+08:00

my life is in a mess....really...

everything i dont seem to be good...

i wish and wish....

you could be by my side and telling me...

girl, you will be fine cos you got me...

no matter how i hard i try...

everything i do just related to you...

i miss those days, bcos of those lil bear...

you can spent so much so much...

talk for hrs on phone till th next morning...

fetch me to sch...everywhere we been to...

so much...i keep thinking back...

i really do...wad did i do to deserve so much...

i work so hard...do everything for you...think for you...

but everytime you re th one to decide my life...

you choose to let it go whenever you wan it to be...

you can fool around when im faithfully waiting for you...

why issit me? why you choose me in th 1st place...

i noe we got no status...no ending ler...

you told me you will pei me when you free...

but now...no contect...you chooose...

need me call me, ask me for help.... i help....

wad you treated me as! if you wan it to end...

tell me! im not a fool to be....

to me, everything was just a lie! a stupid lie!

how well have i been? you will nvr care anymore...

i knew th ans...i knew it...

everything will end...i will let it end...

its alrdy enough of it...damn tire...

i wont be th girl to be there no matter wad ler...

on my bday...think you also forget wad you have say...

im so anxious on dat you plan for me...

but it seem to be a dream...a dream when i wake up...

it will just vanish ler...end ler...

10more days to my bday...

on my bday...i will go to th place we use to go...

with myself...from dat day...

everything will be wash off...memories we use to have...

kept it...locked it...nvr appear anymore!!!! i promise!!!!

2009-04-06T23:57:00.002+08:00

cool!

whole i didnt eat anything at all...

but just drink water...

morning trying to eat bread...

haven eat till half, go toilet vomit ler...

not hungry at all th whole day...

reach home, told mum abt it...

she worried till cook mee sua for me...

buy i eat 2mouth jiu donwan ler!

totally no appetite at all!

think gonna fall sick soon...

this feeling is bad luh...not gd at all!

hope will be fine soon(:

gonna stop here ler...BUAIBUAI!

2009-04-05T18:16:00.003+08:00

感觉已经累了...对你的爱快要消失了...

whenever you wish let go...u will just let it off...

think of me before? issit fair?

dat dosent matter anymore...really...

cos i letting go slowly ler...life is short...

u donno when you would leave this world...

im gonna make my life..happy...i will smile!

and i will go on and cherish this life...

i believe you wont be just th one...^^

woahhhh~

reach home at 6amplus shiok!

omgggg!

FAST AND FURIOUS 4 rated as.....

5/5STARSSSSS!!!!

to others i donno...but me, is damn nice!

i love to watch la! CHIO!!!!! cool~

girlf bro sent us back hougang...

play cards at vien hse with 2guys...

and hor! wake up early in th morning at 9plus...

go paipai at TOP HILL & BANDAI...

go pai AHgong at top hill. sway!!!!

reach there haven 5mins, rain till so big!

whole body wet lo! dirty...luh!!!

so chg to BANDAI pai AHma first...

smoky till cant tahan lo! dotsssss......

everything done, cousing sent us back home...

tire till i fall aslp lo! bath and chg quickly when i reach home...

hahahah! shall stop here ler(: BYE!

2009-04-01T01:30:00.002+08:00

i really donno how strong can i be...

life goes on each day...

day past and past just laidat...w/o any news...

i donno how should i say or wad should i say...

its april fool today, everyone is making ppl like a fool...

but im just like a fool before april fool...

my eyes is really red&pain this few days...

donno why...wake up jiu red...

feeling restless...sleepy...no mood...eyes pain...

but i tell myself...i can go through it by myself...

18more days to my bday...

i will be gng out myself on dat day...

go to places dat i most wanted to go...

i will be happy on this days...

i will let go, i wont disturb you anymore...

takecare...i will overcome no matter wad(:

2009-03-31T21:24:00.002+08:00

well....im much more better(:

getting back th previous life i have...

i will cheerup d.

must prepare very well for tmolo BTT ler.

all th best to myself luh! HEES ^^

nothing must to blog ler la. LOL!

BYEBYE!(:

2009-03-30T03:18:00.004+08:00

a person in a lifetime....
can never shed a tears so seldom....
tears is precious...
you will only shed a tears when
you know you already lost the one...
you love the most, th most precious one...
you will shed a tears only when you re being hurt....
when the wound cant be heal...the scars stay on...
going on life with full of regrets...full of scars....
this is how life should be from the love ones?

no fairness...no forever...no everlasting...

no true loves...NOTHING AT ALL....

2009-03-30T02:26:00.004+08:00

REALLY DAMN FCUKING SAD!!!!

i don wish to use this words....

but world is letting me noe.......

IM JUST A FCUKING FOOL TO MAKE USE OF!

SO NICE TO MAKE USE OF! EVERYTIME!

when need help, a machine to use it to do this and dat.

don need it. throw a side, wait to be call and use it!

DAMN IT LA! all was just a lie, FCUKING LIE!

once...twice...agn and agn....

each i nid acc....donwan this and dat!

if others want it! sure to be there!

it can be place there for days w/o any news! NTH!

who can nderstand how i feel! wad im gng through!

sleepless in th nite,so painful....its really painful!

giving me false hope, looking forward for anything you said!

but...........................................all was just a lie, A LIE!!!!!!

so long......wait and wait and wait!!!!!

everything is just wait!!! when could it be me????!!!!

when it could be fair in this world!!!! NEVER!!!!!

thks alot!!!! you let me know....FROM THIS MOMENT ON!!!!

IM JUST LIKE A FCUKING FOOL IN THIS WORLD!!!!

tell me wad should i do?

when then you re willing to let know wad you re thinking...

so much i've done, issit you think its not enough.

or you think all i do is a must?!?!

wear i stand? not even a corner in yur heart?

this of life, how long you wan me to spent?

tell me!!! how much tears you wan me to shed?

i control myself, don disturb you, smile infront of anyone.

enjoying which i dont! being crazy to hid my sadness!

how long could i really hold on?!?! i donno......

when then you can understand how its feel?!?!

a small request.....always cant be......NEVER ))):

2009-03-26T18:04:00.003+08:00

well...ppl is complaining my blog is bored luh!
no photo, no update d. haha! :D
so.....shall update iin office.
gtg go off soon ler, just finish my work.
its so tire can, so many things to do.
ot till so late...wear got time update neh? LOL!
hmm....gng out have fun today!
its my beloved candy bday ^^
will update when i got photo agn alrite(: BYE!

~~i can nvr ever catch wad is in yur mind.~~
u always leave me aside alone.
don let me feel it this way can?
im not a things to place aside when you don nid it.
superrr.........miss you!
im tire of placing a fake smile, its really tire!

2009-03-08T17:58:00.004+08:00

quit old photo ler, sry for late update urh hubby!(:
imissyou! muacks :DDD

OHYEA! i've got a complain in my tagboard.

ok! i will update now. i just lazy to do so luh!

well, i got not much to blog about.

i just got to say.....my weekend re always bored!

staying at home, i mean not i wan it this way luh.

hais! work was not really great for me.

working there don make me feel happy at all!

kind of anti-social nowadays, like wad my sis say.

i donno why, in my blog i don really share

any happy moments ler. just all sad and unhappy stuff.

~~whenever or whatever you use to tell me.~~

~~have nvr put inside yur heart. nvr!~~

~~suan ler! im always being left out by you.~~

~~i just tire of it luh! what th point of doing so much?~~

~~when i feel is just 1side ....! whatever la!~~

~~go for whatever you wan it. no point saying much!~~

one funny things happen yth is.....
i went NTUC with my sis&sisBf.
i requested to buy kinder joy, HAHAH!:D
im curious inside d toy luh.
got back home and anxious to open it.
and my sis told me, im like kids.
fixing up th toy happily! LOL!
i donno why i have this action too.
th stuff inside is really cute can,
i told my sis i wanto place in my office table.
dots......hahah! :DDD

2009-02-17T00:24:00.004+08:00

its been long since i last blog ler urh,

hmmm....i got this sweet valentine from laopo!

haha :D she place evrything on th table!

so sweet can!(:

a box of rocher, lemon bear referesh d, and.....

my fav! winnie th pooh head cushion!

looooooveeee it sooooo much! soooo touching :p

working was fine for me! lol.

shall stop here! BYEBYE :x

14feb09, its simple but i feel glad for this days ^^

2009-02-10T20:46:00.003+08:00

ohdearrrr....
im just so tiring luh~
slept at 2am yth nite.
and and....im late for work today.
work back th hrs for em.
suppose to work till 630pm.
OT!!!! till now still in office.
my work not done yet still here blogging.
LOL! wooosh~ tiring!

~~sometimes work some company with frens.~~
~~it may not a good choices luh, hais!~~
suan ler. stop here! BYE(:

2009-02-09T23:36:00.002+08:00

~~days is really getting nearer.~~

~~yet...........i donno wad should i say.~~

~~i really very.........yet i still put my smile on.~~

~~i don feel good.....i really wish to let it go.~~

~~let you out of my mind!~~

~~stop thinking of you, and forget you just right now!~~

today 1st day of work.

feel excited till i slept at 5am last nite.

and wake up at 7am.

super tire, but just cant get to slp.

its pain, my heart is crying deep inside.

i really donnno!!!!!!! hias.........

2009-02-07T08:39:00.009+08:00

look at th time now, its 8am plus.

i didnt wake up early for any purpose.

but just didnt slept for th whole nite.

watch 法证先锋 II. omgggg!

its damn damn nice lo.

watch till i don feel like slping! haha! :D

well, i went for another interview.

and im in for th company! great xD

valentine is around th corner.

~~i wont spent this day with anyone.~~

i'll just stay home and watch my video. LOL!

i chg my blog song, super love this song.

my future bf must sing this song for me.

你是我老婆! super old song! is so sweet luh(:

well, gng to my dreamland ler. BYE ^^

PS.

nth special on this days, i can spent this days alone last year. this year i can too, cos i wont expect anything will happen on me. maybe im just not th special one to spent this days with you. i might not be this special person in yur heart, and i knew there will be no hope. like i say, if ever i let go ler. we re still frens than ever. anything i can for you now, i will try to(:

love rounding(:

2009-02-03T16:42:00.007+08:00

yea babe! rounding agn with cliques.
laughing, shouting, kicking backside.
speed car, open window and action our music.
omg! make us so high man! so fun.
njoy it so much(:
back home at 6am, slept at 7am.
and wake up at 1pm! tired.
suppose to meet up at 2pm for shopping.
due to my &@$^&^*#....
meet up cliques ltr abit.
while resting at home, i chg my blogskin.
all photo is with ling.
get it from her and i'll update.
no photos for like donno how long!

th day of th speed driver, MrCalvin.
th day of th gentle driver, MsCandy.
th day of th joker, MsPSH.
th day of th top shouting, MrJason & MsVonne.
th day of th most phototaking, MsLiling & MsPSH.

2009-02-02T03:03:00.003+08:00

well, 2 more days to start my new job.
wish me luck alrite.
rot at home th whole day. omgggg~
bored luh! wad my mum say is true.
now day to me like nite, slping.
nite to me like day, keep gng out!
LOL! no more of all this aft i got my job ^^
shall stop here. BYE! xD

2009-01-31T09:38:00.000+08:00

~~feeling like....hais! disappointed!~~

~~i wake up ler, waititng but......~~

~~i looking forward, everything u say, u plan.~~

~~but each time, disappointment is there!~~

~~suan ler.~~

2009-01-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

well.....its CNY ler.
lazy to blog also la.
have dinner with family on CNY eve.
newyear 1st day was at home.
night meet up frens for majong.
2nd day went mum side to pai nian.
then to father side there.
night time play blackjack.
3rd day evening with jie&ling to bugis.
yth went interview at city hall.
start work next week(:

was rotting at home th home day.
mmajong ltr on ba.
nth much to blog also.
was like sick, pls recover soon ^^

sweet moments xD

2009-01-25T06:03:00.002+08:00

ohyeaa! its like 6am now.

and im here to blog yah!

exicted la, 5more hrs.

i will be gng to dye my hair ler.

have to wake up 10am, yet not slping.

LOL! morning call pls, haha xD

AND YEA BABE, CNY soon!!!!

just like kind of cant slp can,

so much bother in my heart.

i need space to breath on.

yur love was just a lie!

let go me if you not we re not meant to be.

loving is really tiring!

2009-01-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

nth much to blog,

make it simple.

after work went for medi and pedicure.

so cheap cheap can :D

maybe, i should have chossen this way.

leading yur life w/o me.

we re still doing fine(:

- edited -

was asked by this cute guy

to have coffee at this timing! Lmao xD

2009-01-18T03:37:00.002+08:00

simple few words to describe my feeling now,

confuse, disappointed, heartbreak, tire.........hais!~

2009-01-16T12:39:00.002+08:00

being foolish in my life,

when i noe th truth.

th lies is there yet i choose to believe!

how am i gng to face it myself?

when th facts is just right infront!

there was once i heard it,

once you tell lies, it needs another lies to cover.

i saw this lies, i noe this lies.

tire is alway i use to say. but now,

not anymore! im just sick of it!

im not gonna be th same anymore.

how could it be? i don believe.

till i saw th lies, i seen it myself.

and i believe it. not anymore!

it wouldnt be anymore!

over is over! now i noe.

we could just be frens only!

2009-01-08T03:13:00.004+08:00

indeed....i din do wad i suppose to do!

sign~

well, i donno how. i donno, really.

im confuse. totally!

wad should i do? i really donno.

hais )':

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2008-12-31T20:02:00.003+08:00

4more hrs to brand new 2009 ler.
i spent this days at home.
well. let's say BYE to 2008.
and let everything over.
i will nvr let myself to think of it agn.
now i noe th ans, wad am i and wear do i stand.
i shall wake up and let it over this time.
i donno how long will it take. but i wont look back.
i donno i can do it this time, but i will try(:
nah, not to talk abt it agn.
just hope i can get well soon.
this sickness really make me feel so xinku.
spent this days at home also not bad.
donhave to spent money outside and squeeze w/ppl.
haha :DDD
shall stop here ler, BYE!(:

2008-12-29T12:45:00.008+08:00

im not gonna say much alrite.
just let it be. ~~EVERYTHING!~~

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and i just chg new phone ya!
SAMSUNG F480, wanted to OMNIA d.
but nvr use dao all those function.
so nvr nvr take urh~
shopping ltr, i donthink i will buy things ba.
nth much to buy(:

2008-12-27T23:28:00.005+08:00

its been so long dat i nvr blog ler,
but each time when i blog.
its just nth happy to blog d.
~~i tort i would cry over r/s.~~
but frens......i do too!
just suan ler ba.
maybe im not th rite fren for you.
we shouldnt have noe each other.
then you would not nid to torlerate me ler.

as for you....why you could treat so swit
when u re happy to!
all this 3years wad am i to you?!?!
maybe im just nice to play around with you.
each time when you told me,
wad or wad, bring me go wear.
im so glad so glad!
but did you ever done it?
im tire of hearing all this.
don say all this just to make me happy for nth alrite.
i have done enough for you.

maybe......maybe.......!
everyone should leave me.
im not worth anything for everything!
im so sux!
i have fcuking attitude!
im always wrong!
everything i do or say is always wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reply tags,

♥Vonne, YU: yaya! sent ler lo(:
♥Vonne, Rosaline: yea! recover sooooooon! i miss miss you :DDD

2008-12-17T02:18:00.002+08:00

hellooooo (:
im back to blog.
cos it seem to be rotting soon,ohno!
well, i din have enough slp for like days!
busy working, and all stuff.
well, its 2am now. im not yet slping oh!
tmolo working 11am agn.
how am i suppose to wake up! dots -.-!
ohmy! got to stop here ler.
slp slp land ler....zzZZz

and and....i meetup this aeroplane ler.
like FINALLY! pei her to orchard for her shopping.
if u happen to see this.
pls la, OFF YUR LOUD SPEAKER! noisy ^^
BYEEEEEEE :DDD

labels: 为什么每一次你说要走就走，对你而言我只是一个无所不能的女人！

2008-12-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

i want this phone lo!
anyone wan sign M1 tell me.
i just wan th phone nia!

hohohohoh :DDD
yup, im better now.
i will cheer up no matter wad.
well, busy working for this days.
like rite now, im also working.
yet her blogging. eat snake ah!
hahahahahah(:
nth much to blog.
will be busy with working and class bbq ba.
so will be blogging when im free :p LOL!
i ctaving for this phone la, LGKF350!
im so in love with this phone, so sweet!
if i can get for christmas present jiu hao! ):

{edited}

VERON AND XIAOWEI IS BULYYING ME!
BOTH RE SUPER PERVERT LO!

2008-12-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

i just speechless when i saw it...

totally!!!

its time for me to be awake...

no point anymore ler...

why tell me when u alrdy decide ler?!

suan ler... u can nvr understand how it feels!

2008-12-03T01:44:00.000+08:00

hohoho!
i got back my PIGGYRABBIT acc ler!
is like finally ler lo! wahahah :D
met D. & KL. at suntec there at 7pm.
un-lock my acc and im back home alone.
wento buy finger food eat, walk around alone.
then mrt back home. drop at YCK stations.
took bus72, met this lady.
im sitting rite behind d sit in a double-deck 1st lvl.

lady: u sit inside not hot?
me(smile back): no.
after awhile, she heard my music too loud.
lady: u noe listen too loud can make u forever er long.
me(smile back): ya i noe.
then after around 10mins, agn she asked!
lady: yur leg beautiful ah? teenage leg re always so beautiful
me(smile back): no la.
lady: really, very beautiful. i told my husband my leg look so old.
me: not at all ah.
lady: ya very beautiful aand juicy.
me(smile back only)

i was like diao -.-!
i donno her and she keep talking to me.
she is not crazy d, very classic in those kind of auntie style.
her husband is beside her only.
then she drop down from point.
ohyeaa! relieve lo.
kind of funny when she say my leg juicy!!! LMAO!!!
back home, cook noodle eat.
then jiu go play maple, lvl ler.
then come blogging lo.
wowah! tmolo meet ITE frens.
KBOX section wor, have fun have fun :D
and hope i interview d job is nice and successful!
shall stop here ler, BYEE BYEE ~

2008-12-02T02:13:00.001+08:00

ohhhhh...yea!!! FYP finally is over.
relieve so much urh~
although i din put much effort in th FYP.
but i did do my part which i promise you guys.
and... i gonna miss MMT2M!
hope there will be a class gathering on this wed.
and planning of JAN d class chalet!!!
have em as a fren is so much fun and laughter.
although it just short short d 2yrs.
it really make me un-forgetable memories we have!
keep in touch, takecares peeps!!! x3loves.

end class at around 4plus.
wento compass with R. to have our LJS.
walk around, bought nail polish for myself.
after dat jiu buy dinner for mum and back home.
attention ***
me and R. is a good girl wor.
we will buy dinner for our mum.
no matter they re hungry or not.
sweet urh? LMAO!
shall stop here ler. BYEEE~

2008-11-30T16:08:00.000+08:00

~~omggggg....fcuking sway la this month!~~
kanna F. play majong keep lost money,
cant go work due to sick and tire.
stomach keep pain for nth lo.
not feeling well, endure and come to work.
late for work, forget bring flow for work.
slipper spoil! urhhhhhhh ~
faster. aft today will be a brand new days ahead!
looking forward to dec!!! come....
tmolo FYP presentation.
go back have to read through. rmb!
and rdy for tmolo presentation! and its holiday ler.
hope schedule get ler keep working.
i wanto be busy, earn money.
i wan my life to be finish work, go back slp.
slp ler wwake up and go to work!
just wanna be alone, and wont think much.
i prefer to be this kind of life now.
cos it will be much much peace!
although it may be lonely, but.....
i just don wish to worry for anyone anymore.
its tire to do so.
to him, and to my dearest her. ^{both must be happy luh~}
shall stop here ba. tada!

labels: i just wanto pretend dat everything is over.

2008-11-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

dat is th least, and last things i can do for you.
i put in my effort ler.
look around, ask around for yur fav cake wear is nicer.
went all th way down to order and collect.
look around for yur present, hope you will like it luh.
in my life, i nvr wanto step inside kitchen to cook.
2nd times im doing it for you. dat is really th most i can do.
hope you njoy it alrite, takecare!

hmm, im back home ler!
i miss my bed la, LOL!
miss my smelly smelly for 1day ah.
nvr wento work today.
im just too tire to do so la.
but for sure i will be gng tmolo ler.
my stomach not really feeling very well.
make me quite ~~bad mood~~ today.
sry to those who get my shot ah.
thks for th acc of th day,
although i don really wad you been thinking.
each time of yur acc, make me happy.
but it seem like you re with me, but yur heart not.
but still, thks!
stop here ler. anw, i do have photo.
but i donthink it will be fine to post.
stop here then. BYEEE~

P.S 我只能为你走到这里, 好好的过你的生活. 每一次面对我你只有那几句话, 我有点累了. 我决定不再等你. 决定, 我决定不再等待. 续集我, 决定要在天亮之前. 告别这一段全心全意占有的, 记忆.

2008-11-28T03:50:00.000+08:00

ohh, my dear! i love SCRUMP so much :DDD

yeaa man! muacks.

oh yeaa, strike 12am now.
just to say,
HAPPY BDAY TO YOU(:
hope you njoy everything alrite.

back to blogging,
wento collect cake at TAKA.
thks bi so much.
dat he pei me through out.
shop around, wento to PS funland.
noe wad? diao dao my fav SCRUMP wor.
1st half is my gong lao, i diao till gng drop.
last part difficult part, bi gong lao.
i was too xcited ler, don dare :D
in th end, bi really diao dao! wow :x
use 5bucks in 10mins to diao dao lo.
3claps to von & bi ^^
went ave buy dinner for mum&sis.
and back home at 10plus.
buy for em to eat, nvr buy for myself.
so clever urh ~ so damn hungry now.
somehow, i wish i can eat MEGA SPICY now.
although i noe its damn spicy.
but i really feel like eating it now lo.
with th fries hot hot d. cool beh?
hmm.. photo do all say be. BYEEE~

{edited}

omgggggg.....almost 4am ler.
and i still cant slp yet, flip here and there.
im soooooo damn tire, but why?
i just couldnt slp! hais.....
dinner didnt eat anything, yet now.
i cant slp, and damn hungry too.
ahhhhhhh!!!! tmolo 9am talk in sch,
~~sure cant make it~~ ler la.
and still have to stress over F.
is like sway la, bad mood! cant slp.
wad should i do, i wan slp.
but when i just close my eyes,
awhile jiu open. just cannot slp!
help can ?!?! feel so tire ler lo.
hais )':

2008-11-24T21:48:00.003+08:00

no matter wad,i will bring back my smile(:

ohhhyeaa :DDD
im pretty better now.
cos i learn to forward but not backwards.
in every r/s we do learn wadever we nid to.
wo yi jing kan kai le.
i really wish, i can do it this time round.
let go, it will be better for you and me(:
im sry for all th ~~bad temper~~ i givyou
for th past few days. takecare luh!

well, im at home th whole day.
gd girl rite? so gd sia.
jieBf treat me eat stingray sia.
anw, sry to let em worried.
thks for all th concern, i will be fine.
yeaa, my maple lvl ler! great :D
and here i am to blog, nth much luh.
didnt go wear also.
shall stop here! BYE ~

labels: wo lei ler, no matter takecare alrite(:

2008-11-23T17:15:00.001+08:00

hello!
oh yeaa, im still half drunk!
vomit like hell lo, till now still so xinku.
drink so much lo, and im working now.
yet here blogging! power ah?
i nvr get so high for very long.
since yth! thks so much to u lo.
i got to thk my Dearest Baby!
he's always there for me, nvr fail to be.
but i always throw temper at him,
but he din even angry me d.
somehow, frens i have really care for me.
see me this way, all was like worried.
im sry to make you guys do so.
sry to let my family worried too )':

ling & bunny,
thks so much so much! if not both of you, i nvr realise dat some is true like wad you both say. you both ask me, is he worth? till now, i might still say donno. cos i really love him, but he alrdy decide me ler. ended! this is wad he wan. he is sick and tire of me, he give up. but i promise, i will stay strong. thks both of you d caring! ^^

Gfren,
maybe you will see this post, maybe not. but just to let you noe, im not angry with you. but pls wadever you do or say think 1st. and show some respect to me, im willing to say if you ask me. not i donwan talk to you, but i hope you noe why i didnt talk to you. i noe, you been worrying for me very long. you tell em, bcos you care. i can see, i can feel. i feel bless to have this gf. i cherish th frenship in btw us. i nvr wanna lose any of my fren. cos all frens re precious to me. but i still thks you luh, if not u telling em. they din nag me, i wont realise la. takecare urh! love you(:

Baby,
oh ass! if u see this, got to thk you for high-ing with me yth nite. if not you, i think my hse would be over flow with water liao. hahahaha! so damn high man! its th 1st time we like crazy lo, so funny la u. do all those stupid things! really thks alot. all this while you been acc, and sry to yur gf urh. for using u each time in th middle of th nite. LOL! you re th best. no matter wad, u will be always my Dearest frens!

Marcus,
thk so much so much, thks for th talk. although you wont ask me much when u noe im sad. th same, u also nvr fail to be there. and thks for th morning call too(: if not, i donno how late will i be for work ler.

Lastly to You,
nid not me to stated name ba, well! all those msg u sent. i feel dat im tire enough more than u alrite. all along, i don ask more from you. a simple sent me home, care for me from yur heart. dats all? is dat so called wad you said, i wan more and more from you? im yur eyes, when we meet like is so secret, cannot let em noe. we re frens only, wad for u scare? but u ca proudly and ans me, bcos you donwan em misunderstanding. by this sentence, you prove to me alot. all this yrs, all i do for you is worth nth. just bcos of you donwan em misunderstanding, u nvr think of my feeling. u noe bcos of you, i can even like wad u say don let em noe all this. i go as you wish. i didnt say much. anw, i don wish to blog all out la. simple, yur bday cake i will still buy. th last things i can do. have a gd celebration with yur frens and family. takecare alrite? yur leg ah, getting worst jiu must faster go see another doc or go hospital ler. anw, we re still frens la. as for maple you got th passwords, you wanna go in play or not anything d la. i wont hate u luh, i will still treat u as fren(:

nah ~ totally dinner nvr eat jiu go drink liao.
like empty stomach lo! haha :DDD
if peeps see this sure scold like hell ler.
vomit 2times ler, don feel like eating anything.
like god ler, till now 3plus haven even eat!
ahhhh....so xinku lo!
th idiot baby pei me working sia, so gd! [act one!]
faster end work, sales gd gd! haha!
shall stop here then, last of all!
everyone, im fine! don worry ya.
i will stay strong and move on.
i promise you guys and i promise myself!
i believe with me or not, you will still move on.
jiayou lo! BYE ~

2008-11-22T11:35:00.005+08:00

you prove to me, wad they say is true!
like wise, go think why i say so.
sometimes, i find it u re really selfish.
all this years, how much things i've done for you?
no matter how tire, i will nvr leave u alone.
when u need some, no matter wad.
i will sure be there no matter wear am i. but me?
bcos of knowing you re tire, i help you do things.
from TM take all th way back to hougang w/o complaining.
next day, tort you would take from me.
but you told me u re tire, i make a effort take to yur hse.
i was late for work, in th end? wad i get was to go back alone!!!
sometimes i make so much effort, and i dont feel well.
will you ask me ok ma? be by my side? and even thk me?
even when u noe im feel giddy, did hold on me?
no! you let me walk alone, and take things myself!
bcos of knowing u re hungry, giv you surprise
by buying it for in th middle of th nite w/o asking, will you?
although you will care for me by asking wad happen,
but you understand how it feel inside?
but when u noe wad happen, you would always don care lo.
i don find it.......issit a concern? how much effort im thinking
for yur bday ma? did you even noe?
when they say i spent so much on you is useless.
at 1st i don think so, but why? you to prove me its true.
i cant use anything to lie to myself anymore,
i cant use any words to xplain to myself in order to forgive you.
i noe when you see this post, all you would do just treat me cold.
if you wanna do so, anything you.
i alrdy done enough things for wearby did you really appricate?
there so much so much.....hais!

labels: think about for i say la!

2008-11-20T03:25:00.004+08:00

oh yeaababe!
it's my Dearest Brother 18th LULU bday! :DDD
happy bday to you,
happy bday to you,
happy bday to LULU,
happy bday to youuuuuu.....
haha! hope you njoy tonite with us.
love you deep deep ok?
we might not have grand celebration.
but all th laughter we have.
eg. we "les" awhile, send mum fei ji. wth!
its like go crazy lo. LOL!
its enough ler. so much fun!
hope you like th small lil cake we bought!
stay cheerful in order to keep yurself black.
dont be too hardworking under th sun!
must "les" more ok? if not ltr cao ta!^^

hmm...
celebration with LULU today ya ^^
steamboat for dinner.
damn damn damn full lo!
bus-ed 80 back to hougang.
thks BROTHER Fishy for acc waiting for bus urh.
love you deep deep too! :DDD
back home alrdy 12plus.
bath, and maple. yup! play back maple.
but is to kill my boring time.
play awhile jiu come blogging ler.
i shall stop here, OMG!
lesson tmolo at 9am, and now its alrdy 3am plus.
hopefully i could manage to wake up ^^
shall upload agn th photo we take.

{edited}

its 4am plus, and im still here blogging.
i cant slp, really cant.
i play back th video i made for you.
i use my effort to find yur baby from yur parent.
surprise for you! i cried when i play back th video.
th song in th video just like how much i love you.
my currently blog song, listen back....
i miss everything single things we been through.
i really miss it )))':

labels: 你让我感觉爱是让人心痛的, 我会坚强的. im tire )':

2008-11-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

well...
im like didnt blog for 12345years.
hmm.. i didnt noe wad to blog either.
i donno why, i cried bitterly inside my heart.
its like so heartbreak when i heard wad u say.
原来在你眼里我的付出比不上他们的误会.
no matter how hard i tried,
no how much i do...i knew it wont be enough.
for you, i donno why i can do so much w/o complaining.
but why? why u treat me good, dote me.
make me feel....somethings is wrong? i donno.
im confuse... i really do!
somehow, somewear, someday...
w/o me, maybe yur life would be happier.
hais...

2008-11-10T13:50:00.005+08:00

disappointed....
i didnt knew wadto say when.... im being treated this way...
wad am i to you in yur eyes? woke up chest pain...
damn xinku...hard to breath... didnt go to sch...you think i wish to?
miss a lesson like missing alot of lesson... but...th pain i have u noe ma?
would you ever concern... asking am i alrite?
no you didnt, im sad to noe... i told you... tort u will pei...
in th end...why? wad am i hoping for? when i noe nth u would do...
a normal, re u ok? i wont hear dat anymore! a words of corcern...
would you turn back and look for me when im lost?
i just wanto acc you cos im worry... rejected... rejected...
even i noe my chest pain.. i still wan pei you go...
say hao ler... go tgt.. wear re all those words we say hao?
you say hao wanna go tgt... now.. rejected me and go...
im worry... you noe ma? see you laidat... my heart is pain... you noe ma?
不想要每次为了你而掉眼泪... 我觉得好累但我却舍不得放手...
tell me, wad should i do? like all my frens say?
i did try to let go...j ust dat... no matter wad happen, how you treat me..
in th end...i will still be there. i did hate myself...why being so soft hearted...
for you, how much things i do... you knew it... but... i just not worth to let u let love...
cos i born to do so much just for you? issit? hais.............
为了她任何事情你都肯付出... 但我能?
你却不会, 我只希望你多关心我... 也做不到吗?

{edited}

after see doc ler... doc say my chest pain...
due to cough.. till now still pain luh...
i think i should stop smoking....
due to stop my chest pain... gd girl :x LAUGHS*
down to bedok look for aunty...
alrdy promise her... go better! ltr angry agn...
bus-ed back to hougang.... meet up with B, B.Gf, and Gf!
to pasa malam... finally i get to chance go there ler! :p
then sit down chitchat, in th end.
meet up Tling, her bro and Pshihui, chitchat alot at mac...
in th end... down to meet up with J and J.fren to jalan kanyu.
peeps treat eat wor, thks urh! :DDD
back home....

disturb by my stupid idiot shorty BRO!
disturb my slping, i cant wake up tmolo then u noe!
bro, cheerup la! donthink much. no point sad la!
i will add more more salt! let u more happy alrite?
im more happier than u lei? jealous hor?
iyo! sadded.........cry :'( thks la. happy now?
you thk me also too, spent my slping time pei u talk!
gd bro rite? wear to find sia? here lo.

2008-11-10T00:29:00.002+08:00

i feel like going to seaside......
shout it out loud.....
all my stress....my worries....my sadness!
i give up fpr hoping anything....
i really do! takecar peeps.....
for th time being....
i will leave....letting everything down!
i will stay strong no matter wad....
suan ler....nth impt to me now....
totally no mood to eat anything....
cant slp....i feel like gng out....
cabbed to anywear....let me tone down....

我依然还是爱着你的!

2008-11-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

bad day!
~~its really fcuking bad days!!!!~~
fcuking piss-ed off!!!! didnt do things sucessfully!!!!
eat wad drop wad, drink wad drip wad.
nearly cant complete phase test.
lucky thing, tcher say i do well.
feel better!!!!! miss communication with peeps.
come th topid things. fuck up la!!!!
do online test got prob!!!!
knn. tmolo fail ler la! ahhhhhhh....
fucking piss-ed off!!!!!
i don nid yur help, i don nid!!!!!
i will help myself.
whenever you nid help i will be there!!!!
you!!!! i donthink so lo!!!!
dont fcuking making use of me lo!!!!
didnt anything for dinner!!!
hais........im just like nth at all in yur eyes!!!!

im sry, i dint wanto to post till so mean.
im fcuking moody!!!!
i think dont blog ler.

2008-11-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

well... thirty-eight mor mins to 2am.
i cant slp, im tire but just couldnt slp :x
wad happen to me???? i so damn tire.
my J. cried infront of me today, due to something.
make me so shock so shock.
me, myself. donno been how long.....
i've nvr shed a tears infront of em.
i would rather hide at 1 corner crying,
keep it to myself w/o letting em worry.
sometimes, im confuse(?) wad should i do(?)
now d me, whenever i feel sad.
i woould nvr nvr tell anyone. i will nvr do dat!
peeps really chg, some chg to be reality bcos of money.
some chg to just making use of you to kill boring time.
alot alot more of th example....i hate being make use!
i hate peeps lie to me, i rather you let me noe th truth!
nah` i donno wad happen to me now.
jus like so tire of my life im having now.
but life.......still have to go on each day!
hais.......... )':

2008-11-04T00:25:00.002+08:00

this is wad we do, when we got nth to do in class.

lesson over. play around! haha, :DDDD

her drawing is cute luh, plus abit of mine too(:

ohhhh my......
i slp for like ~~2hrs only.~~
back home in th morning.
fall aslp! tort class at 9am.
in th end i also wake up late.
lucky thing, cabbed to sch with J.
tort i was late cos reach sch at 1015am.
lucky! its 1030am then start.
woosh~ end class early today, end at 3plus.
back home bath, awhile jiu fall aslp.
raining heavily, suppose to meet S. at amk.
but due to raining, lazy go out.
wake up at around 6pm, stay home th whole day.
well, was quite boring d.
talk with J. pei dearest M. go dwnstair take things.
chat with all those aunty till so long.
naggy sia my mum! haha :DDD
buy food for J. to eat jiu back home ler.
shall stop typing, BYEEE!!!

labels: i hate peeps to lie!!! you got no intention, then dont lie to me. just tell me you donwan to. i cant believe wad i see. all was just a lie!!!

2008-11-02T18:01:00.003+08:00

well well well....
yth back home at 4amplus sia.
back home chg jiu slp ler.
wake up at morning 11amplus.
so tire now! whole day at home.
play with my korkor d baby.
so naughty! but cute lo.
not gng out today.
ltr on have SUBWAY CLUB to eat agn.
thks to J.
haha! im really crazy over SUBWAY!
stop here luh~

let me tell you, wad you wan say bad abt me.
just go ahead! it just nth to me alrite?
you wan go for new r/s or go complain things to yur frens.
ehhhhhh, just go ok!!!! i also wouldnt care anymore.
all this is you yurslef willing to do. no one force you!
don speck till like so kelian la. like you sacrified alot!
nobody force you to do so. let me tell you th truth!
all my frens around me, no one can stand you.
whenever i try to say gd words infront of my frens.
you do all those stupid things make me sooooo damn ps lo.
i also din mention a words. pls la! you yurself also go reflect.
th way you talk really make peeps detest you. i din say only.
but you force me to! cant stand me? like i say,
just leave!!! go and find those frens treat you gd!
no one will stop you! you re th only person i met before.
so childish. thinking all this childish! i have my rite to do wad i wan.
to go with whoo i wantp. nid not you to say much d!
ask yurself la, dat time becos of you, how i face my mum through out!
bcos of im playful. those re-act make me regret alrite!
maybe you would think. we have nvr met each other before.
will be th best. i wont have to go through all dat.
lucky things, this prob din affect th r/s of me and my family.
th way you re now. make more detest you even more!
wake up! yur thinking should grow up!

labels: i wan to eat SUBWAY everyday!!!

2008-11-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

my korkor d cute baby(:

dots........
at home th whole day.
im good girl rite? haha :DDD
donwan go out, go out jiu waste money.
so i just stay home and rest.
~~no work today.~~
no schedule. but nvm luh~
i become more and more poor. lol!
ltr have SUBWAY CLUB to eat.
yeaa! im edited eating subway.
i donno why also. jus like yummy!!!
thks for th SUBWAY urh(:
meeting B. ltr ^^ sure have alot to chat d.
nvr meet girlf today,
miss you lei! miss me too ok?
stop here 1st then.

P.S wadever to wish to wrote carry on ba, for wad i heard for wad you have done make me utra dissapointed lo. peeps just dont wan say out yur tail only alrite. for why they blame you for nth? did you do it you noe it yurself! and i got my rite to choose everything. nid not you to remind me! just look out for yurself can ler. you go on yur life better. we don suit to be lover also to be frens!

2008-11-01T05:52:00.002+08:00

hellooooo :p
haha!
1st day of work at amk hub.
well! was still ok.
learn alot today.
th most ex i sell out is $34.90.
happy happy! total sales 300bucks plus.
not bad not bad! 3claps :D
finish work, off to cck play majong.
well, expected. lost! hees ^^
then C. & K. bring me go loyang paipai lei.
lol! take toto number. ^{dontink buying, no money!}
just back home. shall stop ler!
BYEE BYEE! C:

WORDS FOR YOU:

givme sometimes.

let time prove everything.

let time prove you re th one.

if we re fated to be, we will.

i noe you re nice,

i noe you dote me alot.

i promise, if im able to step out.

i will step out for you.

no matter wad!

thks for everything.

come and fetch me when you scare im drunk.

come and find me just to bring me home.

even few hrs of slp, you re tire.

you will still come find me to fetch me.

the caring. i can see! thks!

i will takecare of myself.

but you also alrite?

don always not enough of slp(:

2008-10-31T00:31:00.004+08:00

yupyup!
got new photo ^^
im ~~fcuking pissed off~~ today.
cos i cant wake up for my class.
and sick luh!
hais. wento see doc.
2days mc. ask me stay at home rest.
3medi. cost me 28bucks.
anw, aft doc i still can anyhow run.
donwan die die slp on th bed.
more sick lo!
went for hair extension.
with Gf. and B.
today whole was like so shag?
i donno why either.
no mood to hyper, no mood to joke.
was like so quiet today.
everything past.
let it over. i didnt take it to heart(:
went for prata,[but i didnt eat prata].
throat was swollen, cant eat heaty stuff.
well, although im sick.
i still got to for to work tmolo.
cos is my new job, and its 1st day.
donwan 1st day jiu giv peeps mc.
hope will recover by then :x
well shall stop here, tada!

labels: Love in the club!

2008-10-29T02:47:00.003+08:00

hie! ):
im fcuking ~~bad mood.~~
i was thinking th whole day.
i find it, why i do all this for?
why i nid to do to hurt myself?
back home at 2plus. im super tire.
but anyone noe why?
in th end let peeps say i attitude.
pls la, understand how i feel can?
wadever you say seem to be easy.
but it ~~HURTS~~ alrite.
down to mall with J. & M.
dinner at ICHIBAN.thks to J. ^^
my M. noe abt it.
i told her th whole truth.
and she say study more impt!
ya i agree(:
wad i most worried d. is alrdy over.
i♥my FAMILY th most.
have a long chat with my family.
i nvr knew, my mum is quite caring for me.
thks urh, my J. ask me to stay strong.
and i will d. back home, watch tv.
and chg my blogskins.
although its a plain skins.
its another date of th month.
haish!!! 3am now.
i still cant slp, flip here and there.
i feel tire but just couldnt close my eyes!
stop here then, BYEEE! ^^

label: th road i walk down, let me learn alot. learn how to stand up w/o any helping hands, no matter how hard it will be. i will stay strong!

2008-10-24T02:00:00.003+08:00

hellooaoo(:
actually not much to blog.
so didnt blog much this few days.
celebrate meimei bday on th 21st oct!
photo will update soon :DDD
not feeling pretty well today.
which i didnt show out much luh.
well, i ~~resign~~ mac ler.
indeed, im not really bare to leave.
cos dat was th place we once work tgt before.
miss those days )':
down to chompchomp eat.
back home at 10plus.
watch my show,
finally. ~~we met ler.~~
shall stop here ler, BYEEE! ^^

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带我走!

P.S why whenever you say sry, i wouldnt be angry and just forgive you? i don bare. when th words speak out from yur mouth, my heart melt! no matter how i angry i would just forgive. why towards you my heart is always so soft hearted! i hate myself for being so soft hearted, i hate myself to act being strong infront of you when im not. im a girl, i also will be like a small girl wanting a person to dote me! dong ma?!

2008-10-21T00:30:00.005+08:00

my heart feel so pain so pain,
my ahpui leave me ler!
im sry, i regreted left-ing you out.
i will always rmb you!!!
i will missssss you!!!
you're leaving me,
ahpui is leaving me.
one by one is leaving me.
im just leaft here alone.
i really feel very sad, imu!
i cried bitterly,
at dat moment i really wish....
you could be there for me.
be there hugging me, console me.
telling me everything will be fine.
but i doubt so.
cos......its alrdy 4days. totally no news!
i knew it, hope you re doing fine.
not much to blog.
cos i also donhave such mood to blog.
BYEEEEE!!!

最爱你的人是我.

你怎么舍得我难过.

在我最需要你的时候.

没有说一句话就走.

2008-10-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

hais.....
im was pretty moody...
my ahpui is sick!!!
im so worried!
dat ahpui will leave me!!!
i donwan! i don wish to feel lonely.
i rmb, always when im sad.
i will play with ahpui.
i left ahpui out this few days.
ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
stupid me.....urhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

im at home th whole day.
~~w/o gng out.~~
tmolo sch start.
and my project....
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hais! group with peeps i donwan to.
no choice. i haveto!
let this project done.
and everything over.
leave this ITE. and graduate!
i donlike ITE life.
always being left out.
being push here and there for group project.
im human alrite.
if you don wish to group tgt.
tell me staright!
i can do myself d alrite.
but this time round must be in group.
bobian! like so sway!
fail in studies.
fail in life.
fail in r/s.
life like so sux!!!!
wadever lah!

my life is just like black&white.
~~no more colours~~ anymore.
but....no matter wad...
i will still go on with my life.
cos i still have my Dearest!!!
alrite shall stop here. BUAI(:

labels: if you choose to let me go, then dont turn back anymore to hurt me. i don wish to be a fool in my life, cos you've nvr cherish me before! i don hate you, but i choose to forgive&forget for everything. if you choose to walk out of my life, i will respect you. takecare alrite!

2008-10-18T03:55:00.002+08:00

hei-loh(:
not working today.
went out shopping with cute C. & Gf.
went TPY see chiobu. LMAO^^
then meet K.
went down bugis.
bought myself 2things.
cheapcheap d! cos no money ler.
become poor! ahhhhh....
yeaa! working new job soon.
thks to C.(:
come along with B.
down to cine.
wanted to watch movie.
in th end no money so to sentosa.
C. is rich urh~
bring us to a highclass place lo.
1st Degree Fifteen!!!
so beautiful.
i will get th photo from Gf.
and i will upload! sonice!!!
saw a stupid person!
i see you wrong i tell you!
fcuking up la you.
anw, im ~~not jealous~~ ok!
i donlike him at all!!!!!
up to Henderson Wave agn.
but this time round with Gf. acc!
so not alone ler! wahaha :p
back home not long.
gng slp soon! gng out agn tmolo.
i got to really thks all my fren being there with.
although i feel sad.
but you buys there always cheer me up!
thks sooooo much!
i feel glad, at least i still have you guys.
specially thks to C. and K.
always bring me out to have fun.
bring me to alot of place dat i nvr been before.
also my Dearest Gf. and Baby!!!
i love you both th most!!!
wahahaha~ cos went i wanted to do something silly.
you all would always there to talk to me.
ah muacks muacks! hees ^^
and to my so called DaDa.
i noe no matter how i say you,
you will still always be there for me no matter wad.
im here to say sry for everything.
and thks so much so much!
i noe you always quan me not to be silly.
cos you just wan me to be happy.
i noe, givme time. all i nid is time.
to heal back. my wound is too deep!
thks urh~ do things, think before you do.
don always let ppl scold you or say you.
dong ma? and no money ler don play majong.
save abit la. if not 1day you nid it then no money.
you re also my Drearest fren alrite.
im so glad so glad to have you this fren(:
BYEEEEE :DDDD

why imu so much?
when i really wish to see you.
why would we noe each other?
if not i wouldnt get hurt so deeply.
why would i fall in love with you?
when i noe yur heart is not with me.
why you choose to leave me when im willing to chg?
im just not worth for th chance.
why am i left alone here when you wish to leave just laidat?
im just in th dark.
why i couldnt forget you, th memories we have?
its alrdy kept deep down in my heart!
why whenever im out i feel like buying things for you?
and i noe i couldnt anymore.
why we choose to be together?
when you told we don suit being tgt!
why cant we hold on this r/s when we face diffculties?
issit so hard to do so?
why cant i be in your heart?
when i alrdy do so much for you yet you re loving someone else.
why am i choose to run away from r/s?
i just scare of getting hurt agn.
why i just love you so deep?
when you don love me anymore.
why i keep waiting for yur msg or call?
when i noe you wouldnt.
why everything you promise to me?
everything turn out to be a lie!!!
why am i still waiting for you?
when i noe is alrdy hopeless.
why when i noe you don love me anymore?
and i still willing to do anything just FOR YOU!

2008-10-16T01:42:00.002+08:00

hello.
didnt wento blog much cos,
i might closing my blog soon.
dats my blog, i like to type wad i like.
DON NDI ANY COMMENTS!!!
not happy just leave alrite,
u wan u read. donwan then jolly fcuk off~
i hate ppl comments alrite!
i chg not bcos of anyone!
get this clear, even it is.
not yur prob alrite?
i hate th changes of myself, so?
i chg ler jiu shi chg.
not H. not anyone alrite?
around me things chg, ofcos i will chg.
not bcos of ppl! u donno wad really happen.
then just shut up alrite?
ahhhhhhh......~~fcuking pissed off la!~~
anw, just got this news, no lesson for tmolo!
yeayea! so it means dat mon then go back for lesson(:

as for my FYP project,
i didnt blame you too.
suan ler. not yur fault.
decission is not on you too.
its alrite. i will still find a group.

anw, my DEAR FRENS. cheerup.
ppl do have up and down.
kan kai ba :DDD
bball girls will be there for you d(:

labels: i will still go on with my life.
mood: piss-ed off!

2008-10-14T00:43:00.002+08:00

hello(:
back to blogging.
im guai today,
wake up ontime.
slept at 4am plus yet,
yet still can wait up.
pei this lame A. talk on phone
so tire man!
yet reach sch early sia.
cos jie cab me to sch dats why early.
LOL!
reach sch is like sians.
time more sians!
every tues lesson hrs so short!!!!
~~myself don go!!!~~
ahhhhh.....pissed off of wad happen in sch.
thks to A. for talking on th phone with me.
ya, i will be strong.
thks for all th encouragement.
although we noe each other not long,
but you re a nice fren afterall.
so ppl donthink much alrite.
inside me still have H.
nth can be compare! i still love H.
wento have dinner with A.
he wanna fetch me to point,
insist of saying no thks.
so meet at point lo,
walk there, slack at 974.
like so bored so im back home early.
they re still slacking ba.
tmolo and fri no class! so gd :DDD

~~no matter how long i take,~~
i will do anything just to forget you.
although inside me is pain.
i will overcome it.
i noe i can, and i noe i will be fine ^^

2008-10-12T05:15:00.000+08:00

hais! sians.
i think i nid to face alot of things tmolo.
and i will be facing myself.
anw, don nid th help ler.
thks. hais! stupid me.
dumb! find prob to face myself.
everyday will be nagging day for me.
seriously, i feel like crying.
my mum is like stupid thinking can!
she can nvr believe me.
i feel like leaving this house rite now!

ahhhhhhhh..............
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~~im still struggling through.~~
but why should i?
i should have let go.
cos there's no hope anymore.
no one will worried for me,
no one will be there.
im just left alone. all alone!

2008-10-11T15:05:00.000+08:00

im really tire,
when can i have a real rest?
im tire crying for you,
im tire worrying for you,
im tire doing so much things for you.
im sooooo tire bcos of you.
why should i be sad when you don even bother?
why should i cry when you don even noe?
why should i worry when u're enjoying?
why should i sacrified so much when i get treated like shit?!
why should i get drunk when i miss you.
so much so much im gng through.
who understand? who bother?
i rather i don wake up every morning.
when i open my eyes, my tears roll down.
when i open my eyes, i felt so lonely.
pls! wake me up! i donwan to get on this life anymore.

2008-10-10T06:45:00.000+08:00

th feeling is PAIN!
i donno wad should i do now.
i find myself chg so much,
sometimes i do hate myself dat i've chg!
hais! everything gonna be over.
maybe make it this way will be better.
i noe i will be fine(:

2008-10-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

my new GUESS wallet, nice rite?

LOL!

my baobei! muacks.

they re so cute can ^^

so sweet of both of em rite?

bei each other :DDD

they re cute couple luh~

me & C.

her hair is cute rite? :DDD

haha! hey-oh(:

out yth nite agn,
omg! im naughty to run abt urh~
lol! C. and K. bring me out to play agn!
they noe im bad mood,
and they bring me out luh~
haha! thks so much for this few days acc.
go out with em, don let me pay for food.
C. keep feed me eat, cos scare i hungry.
thks for everything urh~
bcos of you guys d acc, im much more better.
they wan bring me go chiong this sat.
haha! still thinking of gng ma.
keep ask me go, go see aunty dance.
LOL! hmm, back to yth.
wento to east coast,play billard[ spelling error].
play number ball,i play awhile give up.
so complicated! let em play.
K. win! haha!
down to west coast,
buy MAC eat, sit down at th playground.
finish eating wento play ler.
their playground there make me ~~go crazy.~~
me & C. shout like hell!
so fun so fun! make me forget sadness.
really! its damn fun.
if can i wan go agn! wahahaha~
den down to 24hrs HANS to have breakfast.
C. fav luh~ she wanna eat.
donwan eat keep asking me eat.
yth abit like so ps, cos im light bulb yth.
but they no la, come out have fun tgt.
R. yth cant come out luh~
im left alone! sad sad! dots.
back home at 6am plus agn.
just awake not long,
working agn ltr urh~ hees ^^
tonite donno will be gng wear agn.
shall stop here, photo photo!

labels: why am i laidat, i donno either. maybe is u make me chg d, cos im alrdy tire of everything ler!

2008-10-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

no matter how hard i try,
its alrdy no use! not anymore,
just awake only, tears....just...hais!
suan ler! i wouldnt be silly enough!
this few days im just so tire!
but i wouldnt wanto leave myself at home.
i slept for like few hrs and wento work.
do alot of silly things! stupid alrite!
just like no one care at all!
fcuk off from my sight!
I HATE YOU DEEPLY!
i will nvr do so much for you!
nvr!!! i just like a fool to use let u make use!

2008-10-08T06:28:00.003+08:00

yoyo!
its 6am plus in th morning.
im here to blog sia!
wah! 3days im back home late ler.
diao -.-! majong just now, win!
yeaa! ~~lucky only.~~
down to pont slack and just back.
not tire luh~
will be watching 篮球火 then slp.
tmlol working agn!
everyday! GOOD(:
4days and i will be back to sch ^^
oh yes, yth i learn to drive sia. LOL!
shall stop ler, BYEEEE!

P.S suan ler ba :p

2008-10-07T14:50:00.002+08:00

th 2sweet couple.

make me and R. so cold luh~

R. & K.

Me. & R. look like wad? so funny luh.

ZOOM IN!

henderson wave.

point of view!

iny!

wahahaha! hello^^
instead of slacking at home,
i wento chomp chomp work.
not busy at all! so free.
finish work at 1130pm.
K. came to fetch me along with R.
new fren! he's funny la.
1st time noe me so friendly ler.
back home bath and chg.
go C. hse fetch her.
down to mount faber & sentosa!
wento henderson wave.
its so nice! i nvr been there before.
yth is th 1st time!
they noe i nvr go they bring me go.
so nice of there, was talking with C.
while th 2guys was slping, haha :DDD
go on to sentosa, play with water and sand.
they build donno wad like,
while i was standing at there looking at th sea.
i feel so pain so pain! ~~imy~~ so much!
put ~~away all th sadness~~ and join em!
i post th photo, build till so funny luh!
then to a place ride donno wad lorry la!
haha :DDD take photo!
back home alrdy 6am in th morning(:
slp at 7am, and awake at 1plus.
photo time ^^

♥Gfren: i understand! so no matter how or wear re you i will be there for you. a shoulder will always to let you lean on, my phone will always be on 24hrs. call me or sms if you nid me! i noe how u feel, i feel miserable too. cheerup! study hard. takecare alrite(: loveyou! muacks! :DDD

labels: ~~no phone call, no sms! you noe how much imy?!~~

2008-10-05T14:24:00.006+08:00

woah!
nvr go work yth due to something on.
but wasted not to go work,
cos.......hais! no point saying!
suan ler. im just ~~stupid enough!~~
to do so much!
lucky i was NOT LEFT ALONE!!!
late nite drinking with C. fren
4guys 3girls. Gfren with me too ^^
omg! her fren bring us to pub luh.
donno wad LIP PUB! not very sure.
keep asking us to drink.
beer taste is so sux to drink!
ppl in th pub all damn high!
their fren got 2 also very high lo.
drink finish wento sentosa.
enterence fees is free.
thks to C. d card luh.
went there. their fren continue buy beer drink.
dots! th ask me to drink 8.8% d beer.
is SPECIAL BREW! so ku! eeeee!
no nice at all lo!
all donwan drink, then th guy keep ask me drink.
and i drink whole BIG CAN by myself lo.
not drunk, but very high lo!
woah! drink ler sure high ah.
plus before dat drink alot.
it been soooooooo long i drink so much.
3rd time! but th feeling is so high,
make me forget all th pain!
K. came to fetch us,
wento newton there eat.
cos candy was complaining hungry.
eat finish back home alrdy 5am plus.
bath ler wento slp!

awake by my bro!
slept for like 6hrs plus only!
tire la! ahhhhhhh.....
wake up!th pain still there.
in th end now, hang over.
my head now is sooooo heavy sia!
lucky i didnt get drunk.
i still rmb wad am i doing.
i donno why i will msg H.
but......my hand just type.
i only noe i msg H.
but not so sure wad i type.
im sry! disturb dao ni.
my bro baby become more & more heavy.
so cute la. haha :DDD
shall stop here ler, TATA!

labels: 爱你爱的好辛苦!

2008-10-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

hais!
i only slept for 4hrs plus only,
slept at morning 8am.
and wake up at 12plus.
just couldnt slp back ler!
so tire lo, plus moody!
gng work ltr. gd! earn money.
rather then staying at home,
nthing to do and think much.
9more days and i will be back to sch.
holiday pass so fast ^^
shall stop here ler, tata!

labels: wad am i to you?

2008-10-03T07:35:00.001+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
pissed off!
cos inside me is super disappointed.
although i play majong win.
is like, why??? hais.
another wan, donno wad happpen?
play majong through out black face.
not th 1st time ler lo.
hais! im always sooooo fcuk to you rite?
say words dat so fcuk up.
im just a fcuk up person,
dats why im living in a fcuk up life.
everything cock up.
is like life so tire can!
everyone is tire of alot alot of stuff!
somehow if im not born out,
i wouldnt live till so pain, so meaningless!
like baby say, i alrdy say things more than 10times.
which i say ler, then another words.
hais! i didnt want it d.
if i am black hearted enough,
everything will be totally diff ler.
is hard for make to make up choice.
sometimes, choices is made up.
but in th end just hurting yurself.
yet u noe, but u will feel dosent matter.
when disappointment is made up too.
u will find it soooo meaningless!
why to ppl in life have to make a difficult choice!
was like so tire, suppose to slp now.
but in my mind so much so much flash through!
i donno, i really donno!
wad am i really doing is right or wrong?
i feel so helpless at times.
i really.........donno wad to do!

P.S don make use of me, if im nthing to u alrite. its hurt to do so. im human, i will be pain. i may fall and stand up myself. it would be easy to fall, but its hard to stand agn. th scar is there! tell me, how should i do?! how?!

2008-10-02T16:45:00.000+08:00

hohohoh ^^
didnt wento work yth,
was feeling so headache la.
cos didnt have enough slp,
play too much majong ler! LOL!
wah ah! wento interview th promoter.
is like ~~no news?~~ dots. walk all th way in.
for th interview under th sun,
in th end no news! bluff d. diao -.-!
well well, today no schedule on banquet.
1 more day no money, at home so bored can!
go working better, although tire but can earn.
ahhhhhhh! sians.
hmm.......im gng crazy soon!
and and QI JI! im gng jogging ltr.
yeaa! exercise more good for health!
WAHAHAH! anw, nth to do also so go jog lo.
waiting for my 蓝球火 to release new ep.
faster faster! im anxious to watch it.
XiaoZhu so cute can! WuZun handsome!
lalalalalah~ go crazy talking abt em.
hees ^^ stop typing ler. BYEEEE!
sometimes my mind would think,
if she dosent appear infront.
will everything be a diff story?

labels: im happy, really! its enough(:
mood: joyful!